happie moments

2005-11-18T07:51:00.000+08:00

weisi and mii.

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2005-11-18T07:38:00.000+08:00

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2005-11-17T07:12:00.000+08:00

yeaa.it has been a longg time since i last blogg.
i was slightly busy in my coming camp.seminars laa.
i just miss my family.shu shu and jiu jiu got a jobb.
they left less time to have suchh family gathering lerr.
and i jus miss that.
these few weeks was busy withh council stuffs and all those.
yesterdae, went to skull to do those performance and preparation.
zerlina was not cuming.jia yu come late.
and everytink got in a big mess.
daniel decided not to have any performance lerr.
upon hearing those sec 3s not having.
i was pretty quite shocked and confused.
sec3s not going to have.
doesn't mean we are going to follow.
and it is suppose to be a farewell party.
with no one doing any performace.
i dun tink it is a party orendi.
sum time i just though how our batch will end up being ex-cos and president.
it is jus tat we have not grown up yet.
we dun haf the same thinking tat those sec3s and 4s have.
yeahh.i am jus quite sick about tis.
for the coming seminar which falls on the 6dec.
tis is sum stuff that i am worry forr.
as weisi and me are in charge of the games
i just worry that they do not lyk our games and therefore dun wna to cooperate.
yeahh.they are going to announce the sec one orientation FA cum sub com.
i am scaredd.wadd if.my name is not even in those.
tmr is the dae where i burst all my anger out yea.
i suppose bahh.going tto class chalet.
going escape to have fun.
i miss 2F.
harry potter movie is out.
and i wanted to watch the exorcrism of emily rose.
i suppose i am watching either withh my family.yanwei.weisi or belinda bahh.
it is time to do sum stuff.soul searching..

troubledd.

2005-11-02T11:50:00.000+08:00

mondae.whhees.
went out withh my family.suchh a great dae tu hang around withh.
went tu bing house at first.
got tu do all those sunaingg and shootingg.
went out tu look for a jobb.
whahahaa.went tu KFC.
being the only girl theree.i was forced tu do the askingg.
got five blue formm.
wells.papa and uncle garfield they doin pizza hut.
mii and jun weii do KFC l0rhh.
hmmmm.we must haf five months of commitment.
wells.i am still considering..
schh reopen.i am going tu studyy real hardd
found myself a studyy group lerr.
and i cnt get a jobb by thenn.
wells.still in the mind of considering.
after that .we went tu plae LAN games.
got help by papa and garfield.
hhes.manage tu plae laa.
tuesdaee.went out withh mei yii.
went bugis.
whees.bought a PMK shirt.!
i am so damm happy.it was lykk so damm nicee.
last time buyy for garfield.no money for myself.
now.i got myself one.
green colour.hehs.
mei yi should be honouredd i bought the first PMK shirt withh herr.
went ORCHARD after bugis.
hmmm.view those art gallery.
it is lykk so creative.
mei yi went round the art piece searching for signaturee.
whahahaa.
went backk tampinese.
got some eating and drinking.
went tu X-craft.
hehs.
want tu buyy more bandds.
no moneyy.
ssaw dan.mei yii went tu tokk tu himm.
we plan tu lend money from dann.
haha.askk for 2 buckks.
he gif mei yii 10 buckks.
a tear wann.
hmphhs.
x-craft askk for my numberr.
they scare POSB dun wan tu accept.
hmphhs.
wednesdae.
went educaree.
got a jobb.
whahahaa.one hour 6 buckks.
got music.
got fun.
educare turnedd into arcade.
para para.initial D.toystoryy.whahaha.many many moree.
we plae .have fun.withh the pri 6.ms tann.whahaha.
wonderful.
how i wishh i am in eudcare everydaee.
hehs.
going tu workk theree.whhess.

2005-10-28T19:25:00.000+08:00

finally it is the last dae of the schh lerr.jus feel kinda relax abit.i took POa for next yearr subb.i jus feel thatt i cnt take lit.my language is nott tat good.it was unstable.and A maths tu mii is lykk shit.i cnt even get appeal.havn suchh a badd result in maths.i jus cnt imagine.one yearr haf jus pass lykk dat.i was wondering.i seem lykk yesterdae where i was havin my birthdae happilyy.and there it goes.one yearr jus go withh a blinkk.
i need tu realli workk hardd for the next yearr.yeahh.todae we got meetingg.meetingg for NYAA.and D's leaders campp.having seminar too.there is still a lot of holidae where i am goingg tu spent withh my fellow friends and familyy.yeahh.
i jus feel that tis is not the end of of the schh term.dun kinda have the feelingg too.yeahh.too muchh tiinks tu tiink about and do.mentees are maing mii worried one byy one.i am sickk of itt.i jus hope they do well and continue.i am verii proudd of them and i enjoy the companyy withh them.they jus simply make my daee.yeahh.tiinkin ahead of the sec one orientation campp.
yeahh.i am not even part of thhe subb com.heardd tat it is being planned by mr bernardd yeahh.i jus tiink it is kindaa unfair tu sum of us heree.ppl lykk us workk damm hardd.but in the endd still cnt get iin.sum ppl did not been in the sec one camp last yearr.but get iin subb com tis yearr.yeahh.maybb it is part of my exams.but well.i cnt cnt imagine itt laa.tis is wadd i get .kinda pulling my confidence downn.well.maybb tis is part of life and i haf tu accept it wholeheartly.sum ppl jus cnt feel and see the hardd workk..

2005-10-17T21:45:00.000+08:00

gone for my family gatheriing.hmmm.meet jun weii at essco theree.well.i was wearing all blackk.jus tu suit them laa.ltr all wear blackk.i am the only white.den bu shi si dingg lerr.but i was lykk plain blackk laa.but ani wayys hu cares.went garfieldd housee first.papa haven cumm.a while ltr papa camee.he change his own appearance bahh.wear contact lens.den hair style look lykk yean mengg lerr.not badd laa.look a\bit shuai.whahahaa.lykk dat denn pei his daughter heree mahh.went tu watch the skeleton keyy.actually wantedd tu watchh GOAL.garfield saee i girl mahh.lykk funny funny watch soccer movie.den went tu watch skeleton keyy.got disturbb by shawn when buyiing drinks.he steal my popcornn.step my shoes.wadd is tis mann.follow by jasmine.wan ting and taariq.went in tu see movie.seatedd withh my papa.tat is fine tu me.cos i am have the fully attentetion tu disturbb him.throwing popcorns.yeahh.den went tu plae arcade.saw arunn.hahahaa.den went bing housee.was being shoot by them in bus saytin wadd a good show i introduce themm.i always end upp losing.and todae was either special.den pull papa tu plae badminton withh mii.hahahaa.papa was lousy laa.hahahaa.den there was a gang off boys c um and snatchh the place withh us.shit themm laa.hahahaa.well.den plae wayy.after \dat have a few times of chess.being irriatatedd by garfield brotherr.hahahaa.well.it was a nice dae todae.jun weii kanna sore eye.HIGHLY CONTAGIOUS.whahahahaa.MC till 19.hahahaa.hope he get well soon.dun spread tu ppl lerrr.i dun wann.after exams lerr.it is two months of fun and crazyness.whahahaaa. x)

2005-10-09T17:14:00.000+08:00

u make the most impossible, possible for me. for my heart and soul i put into upon, u shall stay whenever people leave and goes. i love those sweet cuddles, surprise kisses, warm hugs, soft whispers from u. i love u and i will always do. "

2005-10-08T13:05:00.000+08:00

after this i must forcedd myself tu a studyy system that i set it myself.i mus tell myself.i need to study tis time.so after tis whole week i will have the whole two month for myself.that is more cool.realistic.i don't always depend on my luck.this few days.mood swingg i think.don't really feel well laa.something is happen.it is locatedd deep in my heart.i wishh i could crawl into a hole and cry out.a hole where no one could see.i am well and alright outside.anyone know what i feel inside.i don't really look well.some thing is happenn.mr bernardd was scolding me.all about belinda.he did scold out loud.those words are still stated clearly in my ear.they keep reapeating what he say again and again.i am broking the family aprt.i am broking the family structure.she has a family where her parent and her siblings care for her very muchh.understandd.apart from that i have a family where my parent are thinking about working.my grandparents who knows how to nagg.that's all.my life is that plain.no one care for me.that is why i need friends.friends are important in my life than family.i need the family love whichh i am lackk of noww.anyone noe.a mother who care for me.a mother who look after me when i am sick.a father who kiss me goodnight.who is there to pass the time through.who say he love me.i need that.a parent who spend time with mii no matter how busy they are.who scold mi when i am wrongg.those who get beaten.get scolded these are the parent who really care for heir children.they should a ppreciate it.i need that i wish that happen to me.but it did not.mr bernard explain that my mother trust me enough to let me do any thing i like and no one cares.yahh.this is all right.i am not going to carre.went to bing house yesterdae.he told me something.he askk me this question.am i taking the right choice of breaking the friendship withh carmen in the first place.i am thinkin hard.bing sae.if i don't quarrel withh her that dae.she wun be the girl she is now.smoking.drinkin beer.yahh.tat is my fault.i cause it.does anyone know how i feel.do u think a quarrel withh carmen make me happy.no i don't.no one noe the truthh.there is still a mystery inside me.a question to myself that i have not solvedd.i keep it to myself.
he who i misses now.i need now.hu willing to lend mi a shoulder for me tu lie on.a listening ear who willing to listen out what trouble i have.love whichh i need it badly.no one else but him./i am sure that is him.i knew that is impossible.but i need it badly.

2005-10-06T21:00:00.000+08:00

ytd.englishh paper was quite okayy laa.able tu answer all question.i jus hope no mistake laa.haiix.after thatt.went out withh those threes agaiin.hahahaa.went tu heartlandd mall.toit wadd wonderful place it would be lykk.suchh a cute name.in the endd lehh.it is jus a old fashion shopping centree.went there tu eat KFC.whahahaa.being disturbbed laa.den went tu take neoprint.we hit the next mall.plaza singapura.aftet that went tu suntec.follow byy marina sqaure.when walking tu marina square.yeann mengg was lykk pointing tu sum tiink for mii tu see.in the end kanna trickk.he SLAPP mii laa.he is the first person hu slap mii.even my parents olso dun daree.i was lykk chasing him all around.revenge.went backk tu tampines at 6.15 sharpp laa.it is lykk jus nicee.hahaha.todae.i finally do finish my DNT.finally laa.it is lykk so stress.being rejected al0t of times for tis folio tu be accpetedd.todaee.sthh happen laa.take all my books home.hahaa.not so heavyy.got scolded by bernardd todaee.i was SICK LAA.haiix.everytiink happen tu bb mii.whyee not ani one else.his wordds is still fresh in my mind.i did not breakk their family laa.haiix.nthh i can do.

2005-09-29T20:56:00.000+08:00

2005-09-27T20:30:00.000+08:00

learn sum tiink these few dayys.
yeahh.i realise that.all around mii
there will be fwens.or wadd i call buddies.there are always there tu cheer mii up.
tu keep mii in companyy.make mii no lonely ani more.
little did i realise that until now.i did appreciate everybodyy.
sum one hu always be by my side.
sum one hu tell jokes tu entertain mii.
sum one hu care for mii.
sum one hu even listen tu mii sorrows.
i began tu understand.how important friendship aree.
begin tu realise.loving sumone is no longer importANt.tat not waDd i wan in fact.
yeahh.that sum one wann.FARaheadd.mi and hiim were lykk two impossible person togetherr.
but i miss those times we have togetherr.yeahh.i soon realli realise and begin tu face the fact that .i fallen in love withh u.yeahh.but tat doesn't matter ani tiinkk.
we seldom meet eachh otherr.seldom even tokk tu eachh othher.yeahh.maybb sum other dae i might forget u.or maybb sum othher dae.FATEbring us togetherr.no longer matter.there is sthh which matter that is i treasure the special friendship together.times together were short.but i treasure every min and seconds.i am hoping u are all right.
u did not realise that i do lykk u.i pretend nthh haf happen.i rather not tell u.sum ppl jus cnt take the fact.but i begin tu take the fact.i am facing it.u dun realise it at all.everyy liitle tiink u gave mii were kept withh mii all the times.those are memories.memories of the times we haf.having fun togetherr

2005-09-24T19:48:00.000+08:00

go out wif joel.laww by laww and his fwen l0rhh.
he was late by 30mins laa.
mi and joel was lykk waiting lykk hell.
testing our patience.
den went bugis l0rhh.
was tokiin abt bernardd on the train withh joel.
tokk all type of tiink abt hiim.
hahaa.
went tu buyy da xiao jiee present.
buyy her a verii ctuee tiink laa.
but she will get angry when reading those words on it.
suaning herr all the wayy.
tat wat i will do on her everydaee.
and of cos she will rmb miie and tat joel.
whahahaa.actually buyying her a FOREVER BEAR derr.
heard the auntie sae $15.
but end up $115.
den went downn plae arcade.
a wonderful daee.
tomolo is a dae where i STUDY.STUDY.and STUDY.
hope i kanna after shch dutyy.
3 more dae tu da xiao jie bbdae.
haha.

the bitchh went tu SMS joel todae.
FCUK.
hate her l0rhhh.
flirt is all she does.
beside takin him away.
wat she still wann l0rhh.
please l0rhh.stop tat ACT.
i HATE you.

2005-09-22T20:42:00.000+08:00

todaee.got fun when hafing dutyy during recess.
quite relaxin.
but i still worry abt those 4 mentees.
DARING is the tiink i wan tu stress.
they tot i am bluffing.
it is rrealli time tu haf sum seriousness orendii.
well.class.i slept.
yeahh.i cnt help itt.
afterr schh got photo takkin.
whaa.FCUK.
i am standing beside elephant laa.
tat my enemy laa.
wat theyy wan larr.
fancy standing beside herr
i wun buyy tat formal photo.
no matter what.
unfair worldd.should haf grown taller.
OMG.my dayy is runined becos of tis.
love stealer.wat she still wann.
i haf nthh left.
i left withh FWENS.
at least they are worthh for mii living.
FCUK off mann.
hate u tu the coree laa.
dun act cutee.u are more worst.
GET LOST.

2005-09-20T13:40:00.000+08:00

got bbq gathering on sat and sundae.
yeahh.quite a boring daee.smoking.ADULTS.
fancy calling ppl dun smoke.own self smoke.
they are jus lykk tat.
unfair worldd.
babbysit my cousins.
yeahhh\.they kick lantern throw.
caught fire.whahahaa..
ytd wass quite a so called a exciting daee bahhh.
hahaa.got tu tokk tu bernardd.yeahh.
even mr kenny also interestedd.
todaee.quite angryy laa.
elephant fancy flirting.
my mentees.nahhx.
great daee aheaddd.

fcuk ouff.

dannbdaee todAEE.
TWO DAE TU WEISII BDDAE.

2005-09-16T20:04:00.000+08:00

well.
got progress report report todae.
ehhh.got three fail.
haiix.but got an improvements.
deserved tu haf a celebration.
hahaa.yan weii criedd.
she is my reflection.
last time i went thru tiss.
i was miserable.no one understand mii.
all they do was scold scold nag nagg.
do ani one noe wat i am feeling.
i need encouragement.
parents support mii.
hahaa.cnt afford tu cheer yann weii.
it was difficult.
under depression i supposee.
yeahh.chers haf tu call their parents.
recess dutyy was so soo.
mentees was so soo too.
i tiink i should be lucky tu get the four of themm.
they are playful.my typee.
theya re talkativee.hahaa.yeahh.
they were lykk suaning mii todaee.
call mii tu sing the national athem.or they dun sing.
ps.sing in the end.
cutee.hahaa.not badd laa.
got tu noe them better.
haf a better impression of hwee miin.
she is the best of the four laa.
hahahaa.
after schh.went plaza singapuraa.
celebratee.hahahaa.went pizza hutt.
haf a verii good time there.
posion kenny when he was away.
put chilli sauce.pepper.spicee.cheese tu his breadd stickk.
hahahaa.he went toilet straight after tat.whahaha.
oppss.=X
den serprate wayy.mi and belinda went shoppin.
hahahaa.so fun.
i was saving money tu buyy a jacket.
PMKjacket.it was lykk so nicee.
my dream.whhhaa.
dream will cum thru if i go tu sleep.whahaha.so go tu sleep.=X
a funn daee.plan tu travel all around singapore.next target.heartland mall.whahahaa.=X
tmr.schh function.yahh.gonna be fun.perharps boring.dunno.
i maybb facing hiim agaiin.yeahh.cnt imagine.heck caree.jus hope different dutyy.i realise.
my dream is over.u and mii walk differently thru our world.two different worldd.
fcuk you.piss.

2005-09-14T20:11:00.000+08:00

todaee.
morning.mentees ask mii forr duties laa.
ehhh.too excited.but tis is the attittude laa.
recently mentees are good laa.
was glad tu haf suchh good ones laa.
although sum verii playful.
tis is wat i wann laa.yeahh.
khaii yew you jiu lerrr.whahaa.
den englishh period.sleepiing.
too sleepyy laa.
got backk my history paper.
whahahaa.pass laa.
jun wei.belinda.yi kun fail.
yan weii.weisi fail too.
haiix.history save my lifee.
got two fail l0rhh.not badd.
improve al0t laa.
last term got four fail.
now i manage tu make my english and science pass.
thanks tu ms yeo.yeahh.
recess.got tu do duty withh mentees .tis time got mentees tu accompany withh.
it was lykk so quiet laa.
ehhh.should haf tryy tu tokk tu them.
noe them betterr.
but too many mentees .
tokk tu one ltr another wann sae whyee not her .
den die lerr.
heard tat hafin a meeting.
tmr everybody will only get 3 mentees eachh laa.
whahahaa.pathetic mii.
everyone got 2 or 3 left.
i still got 6.
recently.
joel came tu mii.
sayin i am his mentor.
whahahaaa.got another mentee
tis wann good.can suann.hahaa.
but dunno got fate nortt.
all depends on tmr result.three mentees.
i will promise tu noe these three better.yeahh.
learn juggle ball todaee.fun.
went CIP.
being fedd up abt tat elephant.fuckk off mann.
den went withh kenny go take tiinks and return tiinks.
stupid hiim dunno how tu walk.
walk 10.3km todaee.yeahh.hahahaa.

nicee daee.

2005-09-13T20:23:00.001+08:00

new skiin.
todaee.
feel lykk breaking downn soon.
geo paper.FAILED.
i lose everytiink.
pass all except twoo.
dun except a pass.
wan tu go tu 3F next yearr.
haiix.
stress.tat wat i am hafiing noww.
aNEWlife cann ii?
dun tiink soo.
went tu do art todae.
while tinkin of the design in the canteen.
saw hiim.
playiin basketball
everytiink is still clear in my mind noww.
happi memories of us.
and now.
we act lyk strangers.
lykk we never even noe eachh othher.
tis is not wat i wann.
it was pulling mii.
i lose a friendship.click.!jus lyk tat.
not worthh.WORTHLESS.
tears is watt i shed for u.
how i wishh tu never noe u int he begining.
the paiin act as a scar in my heart.
tat i will remember forvever.
it is still clear in my miind...
nthh i cann do.impossible.

nicee daee.

2005-09-13T20:23:00.000+08:00

2005-09-12T19:07:00.000+08:00

ehhh.a NEWdae.hahaa.schh reopening agaiin.yeahh.i love it.i miss all my fwens.miss the times we be together.the sadd tiink is tat exams is cuming.4 moreWEEKS.it was lyk so less laa.ohh no.i wan tu be in 3F next year laa.dun care.i am goin tu study.sTUDY.STUUDYYY.whahahaa.STRESS.teachers is lykk helpin us laa.hahaa.crapping sum tiime.hafing jokes.whahaaa.funny dae.teachers was lykk givin all the common test papers out laa.literture was best laa.got 35/50 hahaa.ehhh.belidna got 40/50.she won laa.grrr.literture is my bestt and strong subject bahh.mus workk verii hard.mus wiin her.=X.chinese got 41/60.whhhaaaa.die.belinda got 44 la.shit laaa.she was lykk voer take mii lerr.mus study hard noww.be the same class withh her.science got 30/50 laa.hahaa.ehhh.first time got tis high for science.whahahaaa.can laa.=).withh ms yeo around.withh tis small ms yeo studyy.hahahaa.ms yeo teaching ms yeo.whahaa.yeoGENERATION.whahahaa.yeahh.nicce.todae mentees cumin iin laa.meetin at 6.15 in schh.gonna do homeworkk.yeahh.i copy.opps.=X. 6.45 went downn.mentee or wat we called trainees all there lerr.whahahaa.they ylk so guaii guaii.sit down there lykk good boy good girl.so cute.whahahaa.den sabrina took attendance laa.she haf a hard time.haaa.her voice was lykk in volume 2 laa.hahaa.den plus sec 2s make noise there.hahaaa.kanna scolded.den continue withh the mentor and mentee tiinky la.hahaa.start withh 2A mahh.den until zerlina turnn.whahaaa.her mentees was lykk GOOD laa.grrrr.shit laaa.all lykk go withh her well.den mii l0rhh.shit laa.i got two sec twos guyys. laa.den three sec one girls.ehhh.quite good laa.got tu noe pearly.ehh.the rest slowly slowly laaa.hahaa.got time.hahaaa.khaii yew maybb got generation lerr.whahahaa.piang.!ehhh.after schh went bedok.woow.hahahaa.brought al0t of stuff.belinda and mii got mad pooh and tigger.crapping and luffing around.whahahaa.ehhh.she lyk pooh i lyk tigger.two good friends.hees.yeahh.brought al0t of stuff.hahaa.end my happi schh day.=D

2005-09-09T12:32:00.000+08:00

heyy.hahaa.todae iis the last daee of the holidae lerr.FRIDAE.well ehh.last weekdayys for a holidae bahh.tomolo got council BBQ.yeahh.gonna haf great funn.todae.ltr goin out withh uncle garfield.stupid papa dun wan tu cum.nahhs.ytd was quite fun la.and i mean FUN.whahaaa.went tu kull withh jun weii tu do artifact l0rhh.sickk abt iit la.dunno wta tu do abt tat.ehh.got scolded by mr ng.hahaa.not allow tu wear tat kind of SHORTS tu schh.whahahaa.do for about 30 mins.den went tu uncle garfiled house.FUN agaiin l0rhh.three dae FUN.whahahaa.x)before tat went tu KFC tu buyy lunchh.was so paii sehh.if i continue eating at his housee.mum cook four meals lehh.den buy pop cornn chicken meall.went uncle garfield house norhh.was greeted by papa takin a pop cornn chicken from mii.was greeted by his toilet withh a CRASH.slippery floor.paiin.kanna luffed by them.nahhs.heck care lerr.den see them plae game lorhh.hahahaa.bully papa agaiin.was tickle byy him.nahhs.tot so easy tu bully ur daughter here.slowly wait bahh.not tat easy.in the end he gif uppyay.i won.whahahaaa.den went down tu tampinese mart withh bryann.buyy lunchh l0rhh.help papa buyy.chicken rice.cycle there.poor bryann haf tu walk.hahahaa.sads.den cum backk.suddenly papa treat mii so well.hahahaa.fancy callin his daughter tu buyy rice for hiim.ai yo.wat is tis mann.hahahaa.den continue the FUN l0rhh.until evening .papa so kind.plae withh mii the digimonPS2.whahahaa.fight fight fight.always wiin derr.got thhe chance tu kill papa.whahahaa.K.O.opps.hahaha.but always lose.always behind hiim.not FAIR.whahahaa.den eat dinner there l0rhh.yeahh.quite nice laa.den watch the 7pm showw.whahahaa.the dunno wat dragon tiink la.hahahaa.den disturbb papa.always plae maple.whahahaa.den being luff by uncle garfiled and jun weii.whaaaa.=(
stupid them.everytime lyk dat.diturbb uncle garfiled hu start first.grrr. but being scolded by his motherr.whahahaaa.den papa send mii home.same route mahh.tokk tokk.den plae plae.whahahaa.i won agaiin.tot he sae he wnan tu let mii see how powerful he is.whahahaa.nanny nanny poo poo.=Phahahaa.den tokk tu papa l0rhh.stupid him todae dunw an tu go out.no money.should not haf let him threat mii ytd.or else he can go out lerr.there will always be next time yahh.whahahaa.i won.!!=P

2005-09-07T19:57:00.000+08:00

todaee.went for the leadershiip camp l0rhh.wait for yan weii at the tampinese mart.i suddenly felt how beautiful is nature.morning i walk all alone to tampinese mart from essco.i tiink of memories there.where i first started sec onne till ow.everytiink is changing.yeahh.whyee can we be lyk the flowers and the trees.they are sitll the same.although they are old ler.burt they are still the same old them.haiix.humans are humans la.will change derr.unlike nature.
went to eat withh yann weii.haha.big breakfast.lyk it has been a long long time we eat togethher lyk datt lerr.whahahaa.den go schh l0rhh.went to the piano site.everyone waiting there for mr bernard.denn he cums.denw ent up the bus.saw elephant.whahahaa.she act sexy.nahhs.but not sexy.flirts.whahahaa.the SMS.remind of of sthh.belinda should be luffing noww.whahahaa.dden we lyk tokkin craps in the bus.tok to weisii abt everytiink bahh.hahaa.seem tu be good friends liiao.whahahaa.den reachh there lerr.waited for awhile.den went iin l0rhh.nahhs.three schh cum nia.but being seprated by yan weii.zerlina and weisii.hate tat mann.a group withh sum other sec schh plus durga.nithiya.galvin bahh.hahaha.tinkin abt tat i tot of weiisii same group withh elephant.whahahaa.FATED bahh.can do nthh.hahahaa.call ourself derr "SHINNING LEADERS"whahahaa.nice name.den plae games.one game call the blindfolded tiinky la.where wee are blindfolded.cnt use the sense of tokin and sight l0rhh.i was lykk blur.got face one and twoo.den we use clappin l0rhh.manage tu find themm.hahahaa.by ssense of hearing.den call us to from one line based on birthhdae.dat wann difficult la.how to l0rhh.without the sense of sight.and tokiin.sickk lehhh.den i go write on their hand ask them.they return mii one BIG BIG question markk.i was lyk grrrr..den try all the wayys l0rhh.can onli form wo and the rest wrong liiao.whahahaa.mii follow by galvin.den the rest dunno how lerr.whahaa.den call us tu use tat line go find the string.hahaa.i found it cos i touch until the instructor.they nearby means they haf put the ropes nearbyy mahh.den find it.put them into the suqare.whahahaa.den i dunno lerr.but in the END we FAILED.whahahaaa.it tells us to treasure our sense well.teamworkk .dun panic.whahaha.tot it was a queit group in the end.still not badd la.the rest of the game not niice lerr.but the information they gif us verii good.can be use la.whahahaa.nicee.sad tiink shawn did not cum.whahahaa.but it is good too.whahahaa xp. den got the item tiink.need to dance.i was lyk huhh.20mins tiink of the dance step plus eating.IMPOSSIBLE la.hahahaa.den ani how dance l0rhh.zerlina dance until verii funny.whahahaa.weisi dance cute cute derr.weisi group wins.whahaha.clapped onli for weisii.nahhs.tat wann elephant group.whahahaaa.den tat is the end.make many new friends.hope tu cum backk on december.mount FABEr here i cum.WHHEEEESSSSS.

2005-09-05T21:24:00.000+08:00

heyy.whahahaa.todae fun dae bahhx.
enjoy the every bit of the mins to form todae.
hahaa.grandparent nag nag nag.den took tis min sneak out of the house.
den stay under blockk to tok to jun weii.
hahahaa.mii tis type of person surely tok al0t derr mahh.
den we lyk tok tok tok.bu zhi bu jue.2 hours gone.
hahaa.den slowly walk tu bing house.
hahaaa.bing went to collect bottles mahh.
be backk by 10am withh bryan bahh.
call papa.ah gong scold junw eii.
hahaa.lyk dat how we noe whether he cuming anot.
he ahh.haiix.irresponsible.hahahaa.cnt sae lyk datt.
dat mean i will also be wann.
den call bing to call l0rhhh.
haha.was shocked tu hear he was at bing house lerr.
i lost the bet.hahahaa.one hair.whahahaa.
haven payy backk.den call ivan cum downn l0rhhh.
den he plae catching withh mii.lucky junw eii haven run.whahahaa.
den caught him.hmmm.
bing cum withh sharul they all plus gary and bryann.
hahahaa.den went upp l0rhhh.
see them plae maple bahh..
hahahaa.den we eat there.
whhhaaa.so happiie.
one WHOLE family eat lunchh.
the feeling is lyk so xin fu.
hahahaa.lykk so funny.
papa was lyk picking alot of tiinks to mii.
he pick derr all i dislikee derr.
whahahaaa.how can it be lyk diis la.
hahahaa.den papa went to plae the car game .
hahahaa.cnt face the fact that he win every round after eatiing.
hahahaa.shocked for words..
den see him plae.den lame withh hiim.
he bully mii once.
i bully him twice l0rhhh.
as simple as dad.that is wat he teaches mii mahh.
hahahaaa.den we spent lyk 4 hours lyk datt bahh.
not boring at all bahh.
cos can get to tok to papa.see him plae.
den haf fun there.
whahahaa..den bing and mii went to buy drinks.
uncle peii mii go l0rhh.
so xin fu.
hahahaa.den saw sum body smokiin.
bloody la.realli shocked.let mii seee tat.
shit la.grrrr.dun let him spoilte my mood.
hahahaa.den continue to see papa plae.den went to eat dinner
tis dinner was quiet.cos bing derr sister and brother cum backk lerr.
whahahaaa.den ALL DUN dare to took sia.
den after tat went down to plae bball.
hahahaa.papa plae l0rhh.den i listen music.
see him plae lyk so easy.easily get goal lerr.
almost being hit by ball.ltr papa blockk bahh.
hahaa.thank yew papa.
den all go plae soccer.
bing and papa plae bball l0rehh.
hahaa.see them plae l0rhh.hahaha.
it is still fun kaes.papa and uncle lyk so shuaii lyk dattt.
aii yahh.act shuaii.
whahahaa.den see jun weii they all plae soccer verii fun.
den go try.
den plae until slipper borke l0rhhh.
whahahaa.precious shoe mann.
den write letters to papa and uncle.wahahaa.
"papa.shoe spolite lerrr.mii wann money go buyy shoes..."
he ignore mii."cho papa."
den write letter to uncle.
"shu shu.papa so bad .ignore mii.nv buy shoe for mii.
help mii buyy la."
shu shu smile tu mii.
but nthh happen.
"papa.whyee so manyy ppl die.nv see u die.u die lerr.den mii got money tu buyy shoe lerr.
dun need to act lyk homerun."
he throw ball at mii...
grrrr.i go there scold hiim l0rhhh.
woow.hahaha.hetreat mii drinks.
den went home lerr bahh.
papa send mii home.
so xin fu.
cna go home withh papa.
den we went hitting eachh othher
hahaa.but still happiie.
papa send mii home.whahahaa.tok tu hiim al0t of stuff todae.
whahahaa.can i haf another daee lyk dis.
jus one more daee will do.
i will treasure iitt.
it is jus twice in a lifetime...or wat we call yearss.
hope soo..
how ii wishh.time could pass slower.
my family cann be together one more time..=D

2005-09-03T20:00:00.000+08:00

hmm.nice and wonderful dae i haf todaee.
went to watchh movie withh jun weeii and papa.
one big familly.watchh movie together
meet them around 11+
den go tm see the time.
papa was lykk soo quiet.
den i oslo cnt do ani tiink.
long long time no see lerr.
nthh to tokk to riite.
walking.walking.i soon felt regret to call him out.'
he will too felt left out mahh.no ppl tokk to him.
den abit guilty .call him out make him so lonely.
wasted his one hour trip.
from west to east..
denn went to plae arcade.
waiting for bryan to cum joiin us.
den hmm.enviornment getting better.
bryann cum lerr.ivan soon felt lyk abit talkative lerr.
den we plan to watch the RED EYE.they sae ghost movie.
suann mii sae i dare to watchh anot.
den went iin withh pop cornn mahh.
it was sad datt uncle garfiled nv cumm.or else one big family lerr l0rhhh.
den went inside early.tok abt al0t of stuff l0r.
mi and papa throw pop corn at eachh other.
i soon felt tat he is the type of papa i seen last time.
haha.lyk spirit go iin.den becum active agaiin.
hahaa.
den they tried to scared mii abt the show.
in the end not even a ghost show l0r.
papa paii sehh.sae wat WAN TO SCARE MII.
sad la.cnt scare lerr.den throw pop corn in the middle of the show.
quite interesting la.
in the end .one guy take one gun.whichh is big la.
den i was lyk shouted loudly.WWHHHA.den.they all hit my headd.
sae watt paii sehh.shout so loud for watt.
left over abt half abag of pop corn.den i was luk telling and bryan and jun weii.
whether they saw a guy well decorated withh pop corn all over n0rt.
they were lyk luffing.
the show end.i use the whole bag wann to pour over papa.
den FAILED.insteadd.he pour all over mii.
i was lyk sticked to pop cornn l0r.
REVENGE.
went to plaee the machine.
haha.papa aiming for tat MP3 haha.dream on bahh.tot so easy.
a $1 can buy one MP3.
they went uncle bing house l0rrhh.
den i tagged along.
cos verii seldom can see papa .
dun wan to go backk so early.
den my revenge haf soon cum.
lend bryann half eaten ice creamm.
wanted to pour over papa head.
haha.no pop cornn.ice cream olso cann.
failed agaiin.
den went bing house.was being carried by papa and bryann .
dun dare to go iin mahh.
so paii sehh.one girl go one guy house.
den in the end went iin
watch them plae soccer.haha..
suann mii sae wat i sleepy verii boring.
ai yahh.as long as can be withh papa can lerr
seldom see papa mahh.
den go listen jun weii i-pod.haha.
den mi and bryan was lyk taking pictures of papa..uncle bing.and jun weii.
takin papa butt too.
threee different colour.
was being bullied by papa.
haha.they went to eat.i playy maple.
ehhh.begginner mahh.
den ani howw press
being luff by uncle bing and papa.
hahaha.den papa let mii plae his acc.
den i treaten hiim.
haha.dun scare lightning and thunder
cos tis is partly my revenge.
ttime travel verii fast.being iin uncle bing house for ALMOST THREE HOURR.
den play treasure hunt.look for my handfone pouchh.
papa keep it.
took the chance to strangle papa.
he was lyk cnt breathe la.whahahaa.
ltr lightning strike.hahaha.
den being sented home by uncle bing.
everyone haf not change.
i hope to be withh them everydae.it was lyk so fun l0rr.
but happin tiink ended so fast.
there will be another dae.where i date all of them out.hahaa.

wishh to turn backk the timme.

2005-09-02T08:49:00.000+08:00

yeahh.common test finally is over.longing to haf a breakk.well.but i jus cnt afford to.5 more weeks to end of yearr.haiix.whyee cnt i haf a longer breakk.but my miind is tiinkiin if i continue to haf tis one week breakk.i dunno wat future i will haf.dun wishh to go 3G next year.tat will be the end of mii mann.finally realise tat studies are important jus lykk watt lives is.tis is still not too late.i can continue studies.burning midnoght oil.for jus 5 weeks.currently common test was okayy.englishh.not sure yet.chinese was easy.science i jus get backk my markks.thanks ms yeo for tat.mathhs.not sure yett.it look quite simple.the rest was okayy. except of geo.gonna fail tat.after schh.kenny belinda and mii went void deck to plae badminton.crapping all along.hahahaa.after tat went to eat KFC.we were lykk gifing all our food half half to kenny la.he got no money.hahaha.well.we saw victor and his friend.kenny was lykk tokin to him.but victor did not reply.whahahaa.kenny pai sehh agaiin.everydae pai sehh.hahahaa.dn we were lykk tokin and crappin all along.until we see a familar figure cuming into KFC and walkin toward victor.it was dan la.hahahaa.mi and belinda was lyk shocked.they were lykk jus sitting in front of us.stress.withh a person.not so fmailar.sitting in front of our seat.we were lykk difficult to eat la.hahahaa.kenny was lykk calling us to be quick.iwas shocked ppl lyk kenny olso shocked.hahahaa.den after eating ./kenny went home.goin out otgether on mondae agaiin.plaza singapura finding jobs.whahahaa.mi and belinda went there to gif them moral support.hahahaa.see whether kenny cann get the job n0rt.hahahaa.went shopping withh belinda.was shockedtat wwe can shop 3 hours at tm and century sqaure.we were lykk playin around in every shop..finally tink of a solution.hmmm.let yean meng be our papa.den mei yi will be our mama mahh.den kenny will be yean meng 2nd wife.whahahaa.lyk those in the older dayys.hahahaa.

2005-08-31T20:44:00.000+08:00

todaee.got the aces dae in the morning.OMG.it was lyk so scary.standing in front of around three or four class la.den it was lyk so paii sehh.dancing on two tables.embraass myself.tis is goin to be the last time mann.dunwan to do it agaiin lerr.after dat went down withh kenny belinda and yean meng to gif mdm faridah her teacher's dae present.cum up again.gif ms yeo hers.she was lyk so happii.whahahaa.went down again to find the rest of the teachers.yean meng and kenny was lyk so scared la den they purposely take our gift.den we were lyk bare handed went down quickly.hahah.a tour around the sch withh craps and jokes. den haf my geo and lit common test cuming.hahahaa.lit maybb got abit confidence.but in geo.realli hopeless.i went sleeping for 15 mins.my brain was realli BLANK when i saw those questions.QUESTION MARKS everywhere.after sch.went backk withh dafrren law.nick and bryan.hahaha.we lyk takin taxis la.taxis price was $2.70.woow.we wasting money la.so richh lyk dat.den went up to look for cassylnn.cher yang they all l0r.hahaha.den after dat went to the coffeeshop there.ppl were lyk get lesser and lesser.hahahaa.den we went backk to hook them here.den janice and si min cum lerr.deb cher yang and edmund smoke l0r.haiix.smokers agaiin.learn badd lerr la.whatt realli happen mann.they change so fastt l0r.they are realli kind and friendly guys.cassylnn went councilling them.den girls were lyk get crazy over ringtones.hahahaa.denw ent to TM.we were lyk craping.den i make jeremy angry l0r.den jeremy jus go home.i was lyk playin withh him only la.treat it so serious.yahh.everytiink is my fault.maybb tis will be my last and first gathering withh u guys.dun wna to spoilte it next yearr.. ..

2005-08-30T19:51:00.000+08:00

woow.it may seem to be a long long time to mii even since my last blogg.whahahaa.todae was reall fun.morning study study study.STUDY is the words in my heart.realli wanna concenrate.i was tinkin the last night.yahh i dun wann to get out of council.at the same time i dun wan to get to 3G the ext year.withh those female doggs everywhere.cooperate withh them was worst.sso haf to work real hard to stay in 3F next yearr.it was more fun.tat the class i lyk.i will workk hard.dun wna to end up to be in 3G the class i dislike.it will sure influence mii.last year i remembered mi and gary was lyk the same position.and onli one can go in 2F cos next position is for yean meng lerr mahh.and lucky god is withh mii.i went in 2F becos of my first name.whahahaa.tis year i dun tiink of being lucky.wanted to try my best.hard workk sure pay off derr.and after tat i will celebrate.yeahhh.my current goal.hahaa.tml is teacher's day eve.hahaa.so in englishh lesson we were lykk throwing paper from east to west from northh to southh.asking belinda.kenny and yean meng abt after schh tiinky.hahaha.den teacher was lykk marking papers.heck care us.whahahaa.it was lyk so fun la.HAHA.den went off withh mathhs and history paper.hahaha.last min workk.hahahaa.able to go iin some.and the some of the question cum out.whahahahaa.i was lyk noe how to answer la.but not sure can pass n0rt.hahahaa.yeahh.den went celebrate.all the impt subject finishh liao.yay.so happi at least can relax abit lerr.whahahahaa.=P
den after schhh.mii.belinda.kenny and yean meng went to look for cher's dae present.went to look for our beloved mdm faridahh.hahahaha.went to eat long john silver.we were lyk crapping.changing kenny name.from kenny to kennylina.from kennylina to katherina.from katherina to callyliina .from callyliina to catherina.hahaha.den finally finall name CINDERALLA.woow.it was lykk lame la.but we were lyk luffing lyk mad.den we suann kenny here and there.den change long john silver to short john gold.from short john gold to medium johnn bronze.hahahaha.it was lyk so funny.den during eating while yean meng buying.kenny was lyk hiding yean meng's bag la.den yean meng was lyk worried.hahaha.after dat went for a breakk.went to plae the TM playground.whahahaa.we were lyk small children.hahaha.turnign and turning.climbing and junping.mi go up the stage.and being scolded from the security guard.den went climbing.yeann meng was lyk climbing so highh.den can touchh the wire.the security guaurd scold too.den askk whichh schh we cum from.we were lyk so ashamed den he saw our schh dunman sec.ohhh no.den he sae wat dunman sec got discipline wann mahh.verii strict.den we were lyk ehhhh.den askk whyee still here.i ani how sae watt clebrating after exam lerr mahh.den he believe.den we go lerr.ltr tml our name announce den die lerr.hahahaa.den went to yellow.along the wayy.kenny was lyk running from us la.den we were lyk goin up and downn.lyk running marathon lyk dat.hahahaa.finally went to do the painting.hahahaa.3 hours.we were lyk playiin.paint kenny hair .hahahaa.den paint yean meng leg.finally there is a shape cuming out.hahahaa.so tat is my dae.it was lyk SO FUN.hahaha.did not expect yean meng to tok so muchh and crap withh us.hahahaa.yeahhh.friends are always friends.cool.

2005-08-25T18:49:00.000+08:00

todae was a niicee dae.hahaa.nice thursdae.the weather was lyk so coldd la.haha.went for DNT first.todae nv sleep.lesson quite interesting.abt drawing derr.haha.den after tat do aritifact.hahaa.was lyk so busyy.but the atmostphere verii cool.haha.can sense and feel iit.den went for duty la.hahaa.after dat continue eatin our kway chap.den still early mahh.de plan to went up to put sthh and checkk sthh.haha.den mii and weisii plan to scare shawn.whahaha.we lyk playin hide and seek la.it was lyk round and round.den plan to go backk class first.hahah.den suddenly jus scare him l0r.he was lyk so m0ody.wonder wat happen to him agaiin.went home tat time olso saw him so moody.hahaha.moodswing.whahahaa.den after schh went to paiint art l0r.we lyk so playful l0r.hahaa.we ka jiao kenny the white paiint.make him paint and pain agaiin.hahaha.he was lyk so angry la.haha.den help to do the teachers dae presents.hahhaa.tis year abit special.teachers will be shocked.haha.but our hardwork la.haha.ope they lyk bahh.onli for 8 teachers.hahaha.den went to pale withh the ropes.whahahaa.we lyk throwing down to gallery.den yean meng go take.den disturb him.he cum up.i throw agaiin.den kenny went down to take.hahaha.den yean meng purposely go throw at kenny head.whahahaa.three times.hahaa.den went to plae badminton.hahah.den cnt find.mr wong dun let us plae.den went to plae captain ball.hahaha.jolyn not there.den i den go secretly plae der.hahaha.it was lyk soFUN l0r.hahaha.hyperactive derr mii.dun care lerr l0r.jus chiong la.hahaa.den ting weii.zi xiu they all cum joiin.hahaha.more fun.den ruo haoo they all.suddenly belinda sae she wan to go home.den elft mii and huei jing plae.hahaha.it was lyk so FUN l0r.whahahaa.thursdae i will go and plae mann.dun care lerr.WHHEESSS.tis is fun and interesting.

2005-08-24T18:57:00.000+08:00

heyy.backk here.haha.i was realli feel full of excitement when i always cum backk here blogging.whichh makike mii tiink tat my dae is all over.haha.todae is always a brand new dae for mii.i am lookijn forward to every new dae and hope it end up to be a good wann whichh i hope i can turn backk time tto.todae.well.it was the same old unlucky dae.tiink tis week lucky lady is not withh mii.it has been a total of 3 continous dae tat i haf felt tis wayy.should i or should ii nott.todsae morning i was lykk realli lookin for a replacement for mii.i am hafing CIP on the aftern0on la.den i haf tis dentention duty to do.haiix.i haf been lookin for replacement since yesterdae morning and it has been 64 hours all dae all night l0okin for one.tat is the problem la.when cum to replcement .no one wans to do.haiix.i was lyk askking one over one whether they can replace mii.but everyone was so busy la.no one is free on tis dae.i doubt tanest will do the duty too.so in the end.i wanted to be resposible abit.although cnt do at least tell the PA/PE director la.i knew tis wun not a good idea too.yes.in the end jia yu was lyk telling mii to find replacement no use telling her.yes.tis is the answer i was expecting.i told her i still cnt find one.i was looking for a replacement since yesterdae.she dun seem to believe mii and called mii to continue askking ppl.haiix.tis was lyk pulling down all my confident la.overall i was realli sickk abt tis lerr.council stuff.duties.these few dayys.i saw ppl askking for replacement sayin they got remedial but seeing them at the canteen playiin.so angry.ppl quitting council.and duty clockwise.directors dun believe iin mii.wat am i askking for mann.haiix.is it time for mii to quit.no i must not.i tiink of all the joys and hlaughter we haf in council over the hardship.siick la.moodswing bahh.not to tiink so muchh.moodswing.jia yu was lyk dun believe wat i sae.well wat can i sae now.i was lyk telling her i even ask the president abt tiis.and she sae not free.she even help mii to find wann.but failed.haiix.siickk la.dun wishh to bother ani more.after schh.only 5 students from 2F is goin CIP la.we join 2G mahh.actually dunw an to go derr.but i jus dun feel good nv go for one CIP.so mii and belinda go l0r.i knew that i t gonna be boring.yahh indeed it is boring.haha.2G class was lyk so lame.haha.but verii obiedent.haha.yeahh.2G mahh.lols.their co-form teacher ms chin got cum mahh.so she bring out the excitment.after the tour at the polyclinic.got ppl sing song la wan to make the old ppls happii.haha.ms chin boight tis supperrstar derr kelvin CD.haha.even teacher olso mad abt superrstar.whahaa.den alot of ppl went up singing l0r.hahaa.the most exciting wann is the beliinda "boyfriend" ruo hao went up to sing.belinda was lyk blushing.wanted to pull her infront but failed la.haha.scared she angry.den she was lyk sayin we should not haf cum here.lyk so pai sehh.haha.belinda paii sehh.den 2G was lyk fun la.sing together.so harmony.haha.but still boring.haha.unlike 2f haha.at least got jokke la.haha.

2005-08-23T18:32:00.000+08:00

heyy.backk here.todae was REALfun la.haha.so happii.beiing withh beliinda the whole dae.whahahaa.it was lyk hmm.so fun la.haha.beliinda girl.enjoy the accompany u gave mii.although sum time we seldom tok but i guess that.haha.i realli realli treasure the times and the special friendship we have.it was lyk so c0ol la.i am verii glad u did not change.as iin .most of my friiends change all their character lerr.maybb i can sae tat u are the wann remain unchanged.still the same cute u.haha.i lyk tiis.dun change ahh.morning got vocab test.woow.i get a 18 la.haha.jus learn in the morning la.den straight away test.hahaa.not bad.hahaa.mdm tan scolded us.by not greeting her la.i haf no words to sae.tis is the first time i am in class singing the national anthem.hahaa.normally go do duty derr mahh.mdm tan jus askk us to stand up.nv greet us first den demand us to greet her.complain to mdm faridahh la.sae wat we verii rude l0r.comme on la.teachers normally start first la.whatt she expect us to do jus by asking us to stand.?whhhaaa.siick man.den follow by mathhs.haha.understand quite clearly la.but mr lew jus see mii bu shuang or wat.keep picking on mii.dunno what is happening to the earthh la.den recess.continue doin duty l0r.haha.after schh went to see movie withh belinda.hahaa.THE MAID.ohhh man.tis is gonna be fun la.well.it was a verii scary show.hahaa.all along i was lyk covering my ears.haha.heard ppl sae the sound effect is scary instead of the show itself.hahaaa.and belinda was lyk covering her ears and eyes.she lyk nv see the movie at all la.haha.cute girll.whahahaa.

todae during recess duty.rumours were pass around sayin jolyn wan to quit council la.i hear about it.i got no feelings abt tis la.yahh.whenever ppl wan to quit i will do and persuade them.yahh but in jolyn case it was realli muchh different lerr.got scolded by some councill0rs.sayin wat i shoudl persuade instea of sanding there in the darkk.yahh council onli left a few councillors.but do u noe wat jolyn is doin these few monthhs.she haf totally change la.she has fold her skirt till knee there.tie was hanging verii low.ankle sockks.is tis what we want for a councillor.is tis councillor verii muchh to persuade not to quit.tis is partly the reason why student dun respect lower sec councillors la.a lot of my friends were take an example of her la.am are we goin to sae.if a role leader in the schh can be lyk dis.whyee not the whole schh.yahh.i admit i hate her.hate her to the core.but.i hate her for wat being her.but in council case it is different.if she is a good councillor.no matter how i hate her.i would still persuade her to stay.workk to workk.play too plae.comme on la.i wun do tiis jus becos i hate her la.if u guys tiink tat she need to stay iin council jus becos lack of manpower.den i haf nthh to sae orendii.i haf enuff.it is realli the time to nv tiink of ani tiink.i am sickk of everytink.a new week.mondae and tuesdae is being spoilte.i dunno how to continue my life for the rest of the week.siick.

2005-08-22T16:40:00.000+08:00

todae started withh a dsae whereby sabrina scare mi in the morning.did not noe tat i was being followed by her la.hahaa.lucky nv realli kanna shocked if not.well.i cnt imagine it.den went to class for lesson.haha.PE.whaaaa.cool.hahaa.netball agaiin.in a team withh huiling yan weii tat group agaiin.not forgetting belinda and xin yu.haha.den went on fighting other gorups l0r.starting withh yi kun tat group.yi kun throw the ball into the net so easily la.lose them by 2 points la.haha.den went on withh fikri group.whhhaaa.yean meng and fikri plus syafiq.whhaaa.so tall la.den haha.dun need sae olso lose lerr.den went on by stacy group.hahaa.the group win by 11 to 3 l0r.haha.ewe were lyk laming la.hahaa.den went on withh weisi group la.feel abit angry la.ani wayys.enjoy PE la.next week goin to haf more NETBALL lesson.haha.den went on withh recess.do duty withh weisii.whahahaa.FATE.we were lyk patroling the whole cateen.hahaa.do duty correctly mahh.hmm.den went callin the second shift ppl.sum one took away my harry potter book.and went running away la.ahhaa.of cos i chased la.hahaa.chase him till level three.and i was lyk lazy to go down agaiin mahh.so decided to packk my stuff.haha.it was lyk s0oo messy.of cos la.put books together withh guys.haha.naturally it would become messy.hahaa.den been bullied agaiin.hide my pencil box.whahahaa.den went finding it l0r.hahaa.wanted jus to see h0w i scold ppl.haha.i purposely dun wann lehh.stupid shawn cnt do anit iink to it.=Phahaa.but it is fun la.hahaa.maybb changing duty tmr bahh.doin dentention duty.wednesdae got CIP lehh.how to do duty.haha.maybb changing it withh kelly.or maybb doin it withh shawn.see first la.sickk la.duty.being scolded agaiin by jia yu.well.wat i can sae is.i realli did nthh wrong la.nv even tok to her how to tell her tiinks la.i dunno wat she is tiinkin la.jia yu face was lyk as blackk as charcoal l0r.i did nthh wrong la.haiix.dunnno her la.being accused wrongly agaiin.HATE ttat la.i will admit it if i realli do wrongly.but tis time round.wat did i do wrongly.go backk class .i was lyk so angry la went to write on my table.tiinkin backk agaiin,d9id i do tiinks wrongly.angry tears was lyk running off my checks la.hate seeing jia yu angry la.dunno la.maybb tiink dun go well for mii.or izzit time for mii to sae a goodb ye to my tie.dunno la.bad m0od after tis.dun even noe wat i am doin la.plan to watch the maid todae withh belinda.but tis tiink make mii realli irriatated la.fine.dun wan to watch it todae.next time.totally spoilte my mood.spolite my dae.tiinkin backk ahead agaiin.

2005-08-21T16:12:00.000+08:00

ytd nite was fun la.hahaa.SF.morning went for remedial.hahaa.meet yan weii first den went for mr lew lesson.lesson as usual.BORING.hahaa.but saw a familar figures withh a digusted face .she wearing skirt la.OMG.being disgusted.tiinkin of her wearin skirt now, feel so.ehhh.erkkk.it only dirty my miind.hahaa.after tat went to eat big breakfast withh yan weii.hahaa.tok of a lot of stuff.after tat went backk home lerr.hahaa.ltr at 4+ need to go out meet yan weii agaiin.haha.at home .read harry potter.being attracted to tis lame show la.haha.wat golden guy derr.den sae wat plot here and there.haha.feel so lame after watching.but at least need sum noise in the house.it was lyk so quiet.cnt get used to it.and sum more no one is at home la.den it was lyk so haunted.den ghostly.whahahaa.scary mann.imagined a witch pulling a corpse.OMG.scary la.denw ent to meet yan weii.haha.stupid her la.forget to bring her skirt la.haha.den went backk to her house agaiin to take.her dad and brother luff at her la.hahaa.den take taxi to intercahnge.den went to buy socking.haha.yan weii choose one socking need a verii long time la.hahaa.check size.den check colour.check price.haha.actually bough one $3.80 derr.hahaa.den she saw one $0.80 derr.den she haf to check agaiin.stupid la.den went to MRT there.saw azl0t of dunman ppl wearing verii beautiful dress and suit la.whhhaaa.hahaa.den saw jerome.we saw the sign there whichh sae "BOON LAY:1 min." we were lyk whhhaaa.running up .hahaa.guess jerome will choose not to know us.hahaa.den saw our class malay boys.hahaa.den went to the backk of the MRT saew zerliina .jia yu they all.hahaa.den stand there.tok lor.hahaa.upon reaching raffles.yan weii and mii were lyk rushing to the mac there.to buy tiinks tto eat.den went to the VCT.haha.den sae mr sim there.haha.he wear the council tee verii cute.whahaa.den went up to dress l0r.we were lyk dressing and eat at the same time la.haha.eating inside the toilet.but it dun seem lyk a toilet.it is so cosy la.haha.den went rushing down.go put bag at the CREW site.woow.the ELDDS and the dance ppl dress lyk so beautiful.saw the digusted tiinky agaiin.dun sae lerr.dirty my blog la.hahaa.den went to do duty.doin the programme tiink .haha.so busy la.hahaa.everyone wear ;lyk so handsome and pretty la.den it was lyk a family go out eat.dunman family.haha.COOL.den went in to see the show too.hahaa.not bad la.except the hu la.hahaa.den went to eat la.shafie is the wann hu take the most food.i dun care abt eatin ani wayys.haha.drinking is the important wann to mii.den went on withh the show la.haha.tat the end.but in total.it was a verii fun nite la.wishh i could turn backk the time agaiin.realli fun la.enjoy myself verii muchh.SF rawks.waITING for the next SF.whahahaa.

2005-08-19T19:00:00.000+08:00

heyy.it is the end of the week lerr.so fast.haiix.common test is two weeks strating from now.chers` are busy.busy gifing us homeworkk.and mark.revision.and of course remedial.haiix.tat good la.i wanted to do well for my common test tis time.no matter wat.i dun wan to quit council.i dun wan to sae goodbye.still haf a lot of years left for council.many days for fun.and tis time.it is serious.serious workk being done.for the sake of council.mr bernard gif mii the support too.mr sim too.mr sim want mii to l00ok for him when there is ani problem or trouble.well.thank you for gifing mii support.i mus do them proud.well.todayy.last time doin duty withh georgiana.she ass.director of Pe/PA dept lerr mahh.the wann setting duties for us.whahahaa.no choir todayy.jus for tour people.no money.cnt afford.therefore i cnt get to go.well.choir is currently out now.i haf to pay full attention for council.yes.and i need to workk hard.i realli need the confident.finding my confident backk.haiix.lack of iit.stress.whaAaaaa.go away mann.belinda got her red-cross todayy.plan to watchh the maid.but ai yahh.dun influence her.went ot look for vanda after schh.went out of schh straightaway.went to eat fries l0r.hahaa.den vanda went backk home.follow backk her.haha.her house was well."cool"in one way."messy"in another.haha.but it is nice la.hahaa.see her clean her room.tok to her everytiink inside my heart.now i can onli confide in her.i dunw an to sae wrong tiink to jia yu and georgiana.and find tat she is the suitable wann.haha.den went to interchange.went to popular .buy sum tiinks.den went backk home.
TMR.!!yay.!!the day has cum.SF.!!addicted to it lerr l0r.haha.sorri .currently being lame.
havin rememdial for mathhs at 8.meet yan weii 7.45
after tat.went home.relax abit.haha.meet yann weii again at 4 to haf luchh.wei sii will then meet us at 4.30.goin there together.yeahh.!!=)
19hours.starting from now.coutdown for SF.whheeeeee...

2005-08-18T17:45:00.000+08:00

todae haf two meeting withh the council.well.in the morning.they explain to us about wat department we are in.woow.i am in the PA/PE department.tat is the touch department la.maybb i can sae tat it is the most busy peoples in council.yahh.quite happii abt it.but i still lyk the secretary job than tis.haha.tat is my interest bahh.but secretary is not a department la.it is jus one person itself l0r.tat my short term goal.and i mean it.i wan to achieve tat in my future maybb.haha.our director is jia yu and georgiana.whahahaa.quite a good tiink la.went off to do morning duty.aftern0on will elaborate more abt tiis.haha.den went off to do DNt after duty.haha.sleepin time agaiin.DNT is realli a time where we realli get boring la.haha.but during the practical.it is getting to be fun.haha.den after schh.went for meeting l0r.haha.sit together withh the department.while preparing.mr sim tok to mii.mr lew complain tat.i dun care bo chaym abt my mathhs.haiix.i dunno wat to sae la.i realli put a l0t of effort lerr.mr lew jus dun understand la.sum time i dun realli noe at he is teachin.i am worried too.i went hoem to investigate myself.mr sim told mii all abt council stuff all those la.i am touched.i wan to stay in council too.well.for the sake of council.i will study and make sure i pass.i will MAKESURE tat happen.i wan to continue serving the schh.i dun wna to get kick out jus becos of my result iw ill study hard for sure.haiix.stress la.den went on withh the changes of duty.haha.the changes will quite cool la.haha.den doin wat notice board here and there.haha.well.tat will sound realli lyk a cosy house.hees.haha.so happi l0r.haha.den after meeting jia yu and georgiana tok to us abt our attire and all those.sayin we should be the role model of the council and tinks lyk dat.after tat went off home withh georgiana and sabrina..whhEEss.haha.SF is cuming tis saturdae.i am realli l0okin forward to it..haha.one more dae.COUNTDOWN..=)

2005-08-15T18:54:00.000+08:00

well.todae was quite errr.no word to describe todae.it started where i am in council room.tokin to sabrina happily.wnet off doing duty withh georgiana.well.during the pledge is the time where we joke a lot la.haha.it was not respectful but we sae plegde in a verii good manner la.verii loud and clear.haha.getting louder and louder.in the end got scolded from shao jie.haha.den went PE.haha.it was so ncie todae tat mr sim wanted to teach us netball la.everyone cooperate.team up withh yan weii.huiling.xin yu.and lastly belinda.we play against shafiq group it was fun.haha.yean mend and shafiq is tall la.haha.den verii difficult to plae.but we enjoy it verii muchh.haha.den exchange withh the guys.where we were against lay feng tat group.well it was quite easy la.cos they were so short la.den east to throw to eachh othher.haha.ended my PE withh mii and belinda sweating.haha.den.followed by recess.do backk the same duty la.so mi and weisi go to old block agaiin.well.two people do duty only.i dunno where is the rest la.htye cnt even be puntual and resposible in their workk.sickk lerr.everydae the same old tiin.haf to end up calling their name lyk calling out to soul lyk dat.den daniel 2nd shift.jus cum down from DNt den let him eat l0r.help him check withh the recess people.tat's all la.haha.attire checkk.shawn suddenly becum so angry la.becos of durga.and i was utterly SHOCKED la.first time see him lyk dat.i dunno wat tu do la.haiix.hpe he okay lerr bahh.shawn.cheer up.look forward to the future not past.dun bother wat ppl doin.as long as u noe u are doin the right job dat will do..
den went class.last period.cher` nv cum .den the class lyk market lyk dat.until mr bernard cum.scarely the whole class is so quiet tat u drop one pin olso can hear.den mr bernard ask for belinda ezlink card.dunno wat happen to her next.after schh.went to eat KFC withh dada.sabrina.georgiana and edwin.they thinkin abt green club tiink l0r.den dada went study.they went to look for a present den go home lerr.
recently went to surf net.found sthh interesting la.tocuhin website.http://comic.yam.com/comic.php?Aid=1606 after tis show.den i noe how important life is to mii.we might not noe wat will happen to mii.my family.my friends.therefore after tis show.i promsie to treasure everyone of them.all my friends lyk:[dearest friends] dada.georgiana.sabrina[good friends].belinda.xin yu.lay feng.yan weii.stacy.li ting.hui ling.zerlina.shawn.galvin.ke hua.yi han.wei si.jie ling.fiona.daphne.[my seniors] khai yew.jia yu.jasmine.hidayah.andre.shing chun.winnie.siang ling.tsui san.inez. and all my other friends.
my family.i wanted to let u guys noe tat i realli treasure everyone of u.god bless u guys.
lastly.i passby tis website too.a touching love story.breaking wann.of cos.after tis.i wanted to tell him that.maybb i am not the special sum one in ur heart.but i will remmeber the happi times we pass together.the times where u send mii to the bus stop.where we sms eachh other happily.pass happi times together.these days will nv leave my heart.maybb it is jus a dream.tis dream of mine ended.but we are always good friends suchh we always are.looking forward to my next verii dae.although the girl hu u love maybe the girl hu i hate the most.but she still loves u as i always noe.treasure her too.

chu`.
my LYFE.
reflection of HERSELF.

2005-08-12T17:50:00.000+08:00

yeahh.todae.they plan to go compass point and study.went home withh dada to haf a change after the choir meeting.haha.tiinking of wat to wear.haha.after dat.dADA inform mii tat sabrina cnt go lerr.haha.handfone bills too highh.poor her.nvm.we will always haf the start sum dae.haha.denw ent out withh dada to study l0r.ehh.we went to the medium mac there.haha.able tom study there la.study 2 hours.after dat.my brain cnt absorb tiinks lerr.haha.can stay still for the longest 2 hours.and tat's it.went backk and watch tEebEe.haha.all the way till 10.whahahaa.
i shouldn't haf tell tis to u la.and in the end u got influence.tis is the worst i haf nv expected.i tot u would be the right person to sae to.but in the end.neither u are a suitable person.thanks for gifing mii all the views tat are meant to be appreciated.i dun even expect tinks to be lyk dat.study real hard.u can derr.nthh is impossible.u haf cum so far.learn all those skills.attending so many camps.and teacher tink highly of u too.tis is not the ending u wan.i dun tiink so.jus study hard.if there is one time u wanted to quit.jus for the study sake.i cnt do ani tiink to it.cos being forced or threaten to stay in council wun gif u any happiness as ur heart is not in there.but jus hang there.u can always do it.for the sake of the schh.
chu`angiie.
i am alive-celine dion
i can nv ever gif up tis.
although i knew maybb we are impossible.
tis few days.
we tok less.or wat i can sae .we dun even tok.
well.i dunno wat is in ur mind.
i am being hurt.
but i still hang on there.tis special friendship
. i am waiting for tat dae although i lose hopes on u.

2005-08-10T20:22:00.000+08:00

well.i can realli put a fool stop in wat i sae todae.i was reeted by a heavy headache in the morning.it was realli serious.everytiink is blur.i tiink i realli need a rest.went to sleep and found myself better.todae i went rotting at home.beside i went to educare to take sthh.tok to them for a while.long long time no chat lerr.help them do sthh.and i came backk home.still haf headache.i am realli sickk la.haiix.unable to read my harry potter book at tis moment.dun realli haf the m0od.walking around.well.my grandparents's home at around 2+ i guess sthh wrong is gonna happen.i am realli sick of them la.realli feel lyk running out of house.they were lyk quarrelling all dae long.i dunno wat to do.whenever i am backk.they will always quarrel.perharps i should not even be backk home.after quarreling.i will find grandfather slamming the door.and off he goes.after tat grandmother will started her naggings.yelling where is my grandfather.wat is tis.is tis realli a complete home for mii?tis is not the first time..it haf been lyk dat almost everydae.i went in my bedroom.close my door.i cried.besides crying i dunno wat to do..i was still hafing my headache.and my grandmother still nagging.my mum wun be backk early.my dad is out for work.cum backk home late.they left mii here in tis house with both my grandparents quarrelling.i cnt do ani tiink.she was yelling loud every single minutes.non stop.and m grnadfather hate losing.and was yelling backk too.i dunno wat they yell about.everydae they would haf a tiink to yell about.is tis family realli complete.can i haf a place where it is real quiet and do our tiinks PEACEFULLY.or we can sit backk and tok.but not yell.not only todae.it is EVERYDAE.i dun dare to tell my parents.they are working verii hard to earn money.and yet i complain.i told them once.they were lyk sad and disappointed.i dun wna to let them down.i realli dunno wat to do.maybb one fine dae i will leave tis house quietly.i jus wan peace sum time.can i..

2005-08-09T08:26:00.000+08:00

ytd was real fun.whahahaa.we haf the national celebration.the sad tiink is that i nv get to see any show.nv get to relax in the air con.went doin "block patrol" withh ke hua and zerlina.we stroll the whole schh jus lyk wat we do during level patrol during assembly.whahahaa.it was so lucky to do withh these two close friends.there is many to tok abt la.haha.not getting bored.whhahaha.den after schh.went withh the three girls to catch a movie.whahaha.nice nice.actually watching bug mi not derr.but dun haf lerr.so we watch the charlie and the chocolate factory.whahahaa.before watching went to eat l0r.vanda dun wat happen.suddenly become so sad la.haiix.i was wondering did i do ani tiink.haiix.cheer up vanda.=)
denw went rushing to buy pop corn driinks.whahaha.it was lyk ehh.so crowded.galvin and joel is watching tat show too la.den went in together.whahaa.the cinema was lyk so packed la.pushing and pulling.almost half of dunman is watching the same show together.whhhaaa.so c0ol.hahaa.after show went shopping.sthh happen.whahaha.and i was lyk sayin the truth out la.galvin mother called.whahaaha.sad la.i was lyk sayin the truthh.i dunno how to lie la.if lie i dunno whether galvin will be able to continue.by wat i tink he wun la.he is a good boy.so i dun tink so.ltr cause him into deeper trouble den die lerr.but realli sorri la.tat was a worried atmostphere.calling everyone asking whether they saw galvin.hahahaa.en vanda and sabrina went home.continue shopping withh georgiana.haha.den plan to go bowling.so call joel and shawn to cum along.haha.meet them at downtown east there.well.ehhh.it was lyk DAMM CROWDED.still got waiting list and we were the 5thh la.ai yo.den plan to go arcade.georgiana lend mi her extra shirt.haha.i can fit in.whahahaa.den went arcade l0r.play one game .den waiting for the another wann.den got ppl c hase mii out lerr.sayin tat was a schh skirt la.denb not allow.i argue den she jus pointed outside.so i went out pulling georgiana withh mii l0r.haha.den went backk bowling to see.well.still need to wait.den georgiana sae she wan to go backk lerr.she and her diea wan to cum bowling..den in the end dun haf.whahahaa.funny girl.ani wayys.i realli enjoy it veri muchh.=)
todae was well.went to my cousin house.they called mi to go withh them.they are watching fireworks at the marina bay there mahh.so i tag along.we ate egg fried rice.whhhaaa.so nice l0r.haha.it is worthh trying.den went to plae pool.ehhh.there is a signboard there ssayiin "STUDENTS UNDER 16 OR IN SCHH UNIFORM IS NOT ALLOW"whhhaaa.den we waited there while uncle micheal and uncle raymond finish thei 6 game there.haha.went to walk walk.sae the PURE MILK shop.whhhaa.their shirt was lyk so nice l0r.i am goin to tat shopping mall to buy l0r.one fine dae.dun care lerr.den wnet to arcade i went to plae a few games.den after tat went to eat dinner.den went to the open field in front of marina mandrain there.wait for the fireworks.haha.it is worthh waiting.the fireworks there was lyk so BEAUTIFUL la.haha.sorri sabrina .actually wanted to go support u derr.but ahh.family gathering mahh.cnt do ani tiink to it.haiix.den the canival there i believe is also packed la.i got the tickets.but need to go so early to line up.sad la.i dun haf the patinece.haha.
once agaiin.
HAPPI BIRTHDAE SINGAPORE.!!

2005-08-05T18:40:00.000+08:00

it seem lyk yesterdae.
where we care for eachh other.
plae as no one care.
bestest friend.
i treat u more than tis.
a special sum one i would call.
i haf tis crush on u.
which i tink is real worthh.
but it become a nightmare afterwards.
things is not wat i expect.or we expect to be.
it was worst.

jealousy.
tis is wat i named it.
but i can do nthh to it.
maybb tis is wat u wanted it to be.
maybb we are fated to be.

idun wan tis ani moe.
causes mi sleepless.
getting more sick and sickk.
tis is not wat i wan.
but cud not do ani tink to it.
maybb u are not suitable to be the seat of my heart.

i choose to leave u.wanted u to be happi .
tat is the greatest wishh.
be best friends.
tis is jus worthh it.
ur feeling and heart.
leave it to the other girl hu is special in ur heart.

2005-08-05T18:07:00.000+08:00

simple dae.
started ddoin morning duty withh maize.
since i dun haf anitink tu do
while doin tie rental.
saw him.walk to and fro.
i keep l0oking.
waiting for him to turn backk to at least haf a l0ok .
but failed.he didin't seem to realised i aam l0okin
didn't seem to reaslise i am watching over him
after recess.after attire check.
tok to him.
he dun even haf the mood to at least reply.
RUMOURS
i dun care wat rumours.
i care for him.
does he ?
act so normal.
i miss him .miss tokin to him todae?
i haf realli a big crush on him.
did he feel that.
perharps.should nit let him noe.
RUMOURS.
got addicted withh HARRYPOTTER.
went jun wei house to take and came backk schh.
HARRY POTTER reach my house at 4.55pm.
woow.
mood sw3ing todae.sad la.
RUMOURS.
he dun wan to tok to mii.can do nthh.=(

tmr speach dae.
got SF and choir .
hope it turn well soon and end smoothh.

accidently in love.

2005-08-03T18:59:00.000+08:00

todae.went waiting for dada.stupid her.look for her from one class to an0ther.luckily found her.she was at the parade goround withh those two girls la.haha.den went down.ehhh.haf lunch with them.at pizza hut.haha.feeling honoured.first time went iin.whhahaha.not tat high class yahh.hahah.dun eat pizza go pizza hut.go there eat ice cream.haha.it is nice kaes.whha.nuts.chocolate.blended withh music and jokes.haha.so nice.we tok a lot of tiinks la.haha.there are all in the past.sabrina wan to find out abt the couples.haha.so mii tell them the story TWICE.haha.well after tat we went SHOPPING.haha.went up to shop to shop.mostly window shop la.haha.tat is common.and we walk lyk so SLOWLY.haha.cos ppl injured.in the meanwhile can see wat is inside the shop.haha.together we plae and plae norhh.one joke after another.being withh them.dun even need to worry ani tiink la.jus "ji liang" de suan here and there.haha.they dun mind.it is a time where i get closer to them.georgiana too dun mind.haha.tis time.i dun feel CHEAP ani more.whhahaha.thanks georgiana for ur words.i realli happii todae la.yay.!haha.den went to the clothes shop.plan to buy one white trouser jus for the national dae withh the three girls.haha.=) after the national dae.watching movie.whhhahaha.BUG MI NOT.here i cum.it has been a total of 6 months i nv even see a single show.haha.aqnd watching with these three girls.i am hapii l0r.haha.i dun regret.i treasure tis al0t.
fakefriends.
fakelyfe.
fakedreams.

accidently in love.

2005-08-01T18:27:00.000+08:00

fcuking hell.
nahh.get l0st.

2005-06-30T20:10:00.000+08:00

# [ [`euu aren`tt meantt t0 bbe miine; wiifoutt euu ii will nerberr smiile agaiin; euu are the 0ne who guiide mee outt of the darkkness; euu giif mee the warmth datt ii nerberr hadd bef0re; butt iits all overr now ; those tiimes dat wii spendd t0gether; will bbe keptt iinsiide moii hartt; datt will nerrberr fadde awayy ; ferr as l0ngg as ii liive. even if it was only a dream; i'll wish for you.
when i think i'm all alone , I cant see the way tuu go , lost in the rain of my own tears , I just think of euu . tuu wash away the pain and tears . thankss fer alwayx being the best of euu . being the best part of ma life .
even siince ii met euu...ii noe tat u haBb a place iin maii heart ..ii jus simply noe you are jus sum one special to mii. accidently iin love withh eu. u mean ecerytink iin maii heart. ] `

accidnetly iin love
[x]chu[x]

2005-06-17T20:33:00.000+08:00

yeahh.todae kanna suan by people.haiix.in the morning went to eat BIGbreakfast.haha.miss the food so muchh.but abit wasted yahh.do PT so many time.orienteering walk so many and now we lyk gaining backk.haiix.haha.promised to do more exercise.haha.now can haf all the free time i wan.cos everytink is over.nthh to worry about.so happi.=D went yan weii house.go see the show."hu cum and love mii" damm nice and touching show.haha/.break the record.cnt cry out maybb cos got ppl aroundmii den nv see a show where i cry out in front of them.but it was realli funnie in the begining and touching in the ending.den went to play the piano there.haha.den kanna suan by the two ladies there sae wat prosidon here and there.i haf nthh to sae but to keep quiet.denw ent to eat.haha.all see yan weii eat.lookin at my magazine.the magazine i will realli treeasure.energy ;last album.energy goodbye concert.they goin to breakk.and it was lyk damm sad l0r.seein ur own boyband breaking jus lyk dat.haiix.den got toro at the backk page.haha.one stone kill two bird.den is lyk scraeming.yan weii lookin at the i weekly for jay chuo.haha.sick about boyband.den take taxi to schh.went iin .kanna suan agaiin by yan weii they all.keep sayin wat proseidon.all i haf to sae is this camp isn't for winning.it is for learning sthh.haha.dthey were lyk shot backk mii.den i shot backk but it end by them again.suan mii that i cnt even climb the high elements.haiix.i haf nthh to sae.stupid.the biggest fear is myself.cnt deafeat myself.haiix.den kanna suan by them.sad l0r.nvm.i learn sthh at the camp.endure.haha.den after ch0ir go eat papaROTI.not bad .den go walk walk went home.

she found the DEEPESTfriendship.the kind tat she CHERISHall herLYFE.she noe HOWmuch it meant to her.but no LONGER she found it allGONE.the BIGGEST minute she wish she could TURNbackk the TIME.but it is jus allOVER.
[she misses theDAE she been withh herFRIENDs.herMOTHER.lookiN BACK THE memories.she THINK backk of the time where it was her BIRTHDAe.although it was a BADone.but herMOTHER sang an ordinarySONG"that what friends AREfor."she was touched.haiix.now.all over.teaches her a LESSON.to treasure all her freidns around her.she dunBEAR to lose more .]

- [ CHU ` ]x
-[[sorrySEEMto be theHARDESTword
- [ ` accidently inLOVE.

2005-06-15T21:00:00.000+08:00

i am backk home.!miss maii home so muchh.maii bed.my com.my handfone.whhhaaa.finally backk here.a brand new journey.the three-dae-two-night camp was real fun.at the first place i nv expect it to be fun as i take a look at the member all lyk bo chap bo chap.realli scare.what will happen.but it turn out well.everyone cooperate so well.so happii.being a camper isso fun.dun even care about tinks.unlike instructors need to care this wan and that wan.haha.the night walk in first night is fun.haha.walk through the forest searching for things.den can plae games.the playground games was nice.haha.but after that suppose to go jia yu that group but yellow and orange too smilar.it make us from one end to another.and from another walk backk and walk front agaiin.whhhaa.tired lehh.den cnt plae cos need to go backk orendii.den washing up is good.haha.camp need to be dirty derhh.so no matter how i clean.i will still be dirty.so i was lyk scrubbing make mii smell nice.that will do.the bed is nice.haha.next morning PT.woow.it was damm tiring after that but it jus make us learn to cooperate well with other and endure the paiin.pumping.leg racer.all those has jus causing mi to has muscle paiins.haiiix.after that was elements.low elements/haiix.kana instriuctors scold.high elements.rockk climbing is the best.zig zagged.that was real fun.concretration.fun. high elements two.whhhhaaa.that wan.i try to skip.pretend nthh happen.manage to get off the two.the third wann.they forced mii go up.den bo bian haf to go.but nv touch the log.whhhaa.i hang down there.everyone was cheering for mii which make mii totally guilty.cos i dunno wat to do.yes there is supporters.but when u are scare u dun even care whether there is supporters.i am disappointed.ii am sorry.nthh i could do.but realli thanks to instructors khai yew.jia yu.sherman.mui hia.and the ppl hu realli cheer mii.ii am sorry i realli could not make myself up.the camp fire went real fun.although a bit pai sehh.last minute workk.but it was good la.the orienteering went well.it was reative.fun.haha.theperson i realli wan to thank firstly is instructor sherman.he realli gif bgood advises to be for being a leader.he cheer us up and forgive my own mistake.nv in my life i met such a good instructor.i will remember him.the second and last wan is instructor khai yew.he is the wan hu cheer mii up when i am disappointed.he is the wan hu gave advises.he is the wan hu make mii from a sad face to a happi wan.realli all thanks to hiim.if there is no him.i tiink i am under depression agaiin.his words realli make mii think positively.thank you.i olso wan to thanks the group members.they are realli fun.accept what iii am.everyone has good and bad points.love PROMETHEUS verii muchh.PROMTHEUS RAWKS.!! =D a camp that i will remmeber in my own live.moudling my characters.brand new journey.

2005-06-12T21:02:00.000+08:00

these few days went out withh the same old people.hhees.ehhh.havin fun outside.wnet to amy house yesterdae.panned to watch movie at her house but tat wan VCD.cnt put in DVD.so cnt watch.plann to go yan weii house again to watchh.one bird kill two stone.=X [p.s english faill is one stone kill two bird.] den go amy house slackk here ..crap there l0r.it suchh a nice place there.kanna richelle suan until cnt tahan.but manage to suan backk.bleahhx.long long time nv plae badminton lerr.promised myself i will exercise after camp.dun care lerr.after this night i might miss my bed.miss my computer.miss my handfone.miss all my bears.gonna be at the leadership camp three days.haiix.dun feel lyk goiin.havin suchh a sick group.nveven bother to learn the dance.cum to schh practice onlii askk mii wat time dismiiss.waste almost four or five hours at schh doiin nthh.haiix.ii am scare of the campfire night.realli scare.whyee not they be lyk other group.teamwork.all dun care.is tis wat we call leader.sickk.ii relali hope to be ill and sick on the campfire night itself.dunno wat to dance.no one cares.lyk wat sherman sae.tiink positive is the onli solution i can do now.jus hope everytink went well the three days.bringing one backk packk .two plastic bag.be lyk auntie lyk dat.go 3eat breakfast.haiix.can ii not go for the camp.haiix.wishhing.

- [[ CHU ] ] X
- [ [ love micracle
- [ [ u are the only wan ii lyk.
memoriesleftinmyheart.nthhicanbring.invregret.cherishthehappimoment.ifonlyicouldturnbackketime

2005-06-06T03:27:00.000+08:00

choir camp is all over lerr.yeahh.i can sae that i realli enjoy myself in tis camp.it was not the camp where we can relac and do whatever tinks we lyk.it was more lyk a traning camp.first dae started after meetin yan weii at the coffee shop.den went iin.plae ice breakers.ehHhhHh.it was fun.during the dog and bone tiink.they call richelle number.richelle dun wan ti run.so mii exchange numbers wif her.den the other roup get the ball.but jerrold block it so hard.zhi jing in front of the ball supposed to hug and blockit but instead he hug my shoe make mii unblance myself.opps.luckily nthh happen.bryan was bluffing sayin that sum one injuried which make them let go of the ball.in the end tis game is not counted so too bad haf to plae another round.haha.ii lyk the friendship dance the most la.mii and richelel comparing partners together.den amy down there luffing.after that was telematchh.the apple tiink was the most pai sehh tiinks.ya kai and bryan went out first.they were covered wif their own shirt la.den we all shout lyk hell for their direction.haha.opps.but they are clever.next mii and shi ya went l0r.tot was so easy but it was not.apple was hanging and able to swim to and fro.den.mii and shi ya end up kissing each other.haha.richelle keep luffing.tat game was quite fun.after that was the chair tiink.haha.after that was the battle war.ii am the queen den bowman protect mii.in the end.ii end up ghe most wet.ppl from other group using the whole bucket of water and pour on mii..about thew orienteering.haha.got confident cos ya kai is good at directory..den went up well.manage to win the game la.until the last wann.yi wen group behind us and it l0oks lyk the station is olso their last station.we were running lyk hell and stop to rest running.walking .and jogging.un til bryan taught us the brisk walking.damm funni.hgha.everyone were luffing lyk mad ppl.on the way to schh.mi and richelle got high sing the "when you lookin lyk dat"song.and bryan got irriatated.nono.i can sae the whole group.we tot we are the second wan cos yan ping group left when we cum.but little did we expect that we ARe THE FIRST.haha.so happii.the second dae was fun.orieteering too.dirty game .den all get dirty.ii felt irriatated by that.the elroy purposely cum shoot and aim mii.after that were the talent time.every group was acting at a few minute .we were worry.cos ours are the complicated and the longest.it turn out well.CLASSWAR..!=X after that bryan got famous.haha.his jokes were funnie.whenever we go we heard ppl tokin about him.haha.treat him one drink for the jokes which make a satisfication in the talent time.den continue by the BBQ.spent more than 2 hour to light the fire up.haha.jing han waiting lyk hungry ghost lyk dat.bryan tok straight forward to him.haha.funni.den went debating wif bryan .downt there crap here and dere.he is a joker man.his jokes were damm funnii.cnt even sit in front of him eating or ii wiull luff non-stop.never sleep that dae.went boy tppilet to bathh.observe the toilet tiingy.den went to watch movie.half way mii and richelle left and went down to plae UNO.richelle verii sleepy so decided only to plae one game.aladin.bryan.ya kai.joel.came and join us which make richelle verii high and decided not to sleep.haha.keep playin till 3+ den got ounishment.ya kai punishment is the wan hu supposed to shoot 2 goals for the captain ball.went up to plae.verii fun.end up down there plae till 5.30 and sleep for 45 mins.plasters everywhere.haiix.morning we went cleaning up and went home.how i wish to be backk at 3 days ago agaiin if only i could turn back the time.
i am confussed.i dunno wat to domy mind is in a whirl.if i do tat.wat would happen.ii dun wna to do tiinks i dun wan.but h0w?am i takin her friends.haiix.ii dunno.everydae tis would happen to pass my mind agaiin which cause mi to think..think..think..

- [[ chu
-[ [ if i could turn backk the time...

2005-06-01T11:28:00.000+08:00

YeAh.ToDAe WaS A GrEaT FuN dAe wHeRe I WiLl KeEp TiS iIn mY hEaRt fOrEvEr.PeEpS.HaHa.GoT dUtY tOdAE.nOt MuCh tO dO.aS I Am dOiN tHe hAlL.ThE HaLl FuNcTiOn HaS tHe pa mEdIa MeMbErS tO hElP?hAhA.sO Mi AnD yAn wEi EnJoY tHe AiR cOn AnD ThE TaLk.WeLl.I DuN ReAlLi uNdErStAnD wAt ThEy tOkIn AbOuT.It is aLl aBoUt bUsInEsS.sO.EhHh.DuN TiInk I WaN.i PrEfEr eArLy cHiLdHoOd.HaHa.DeN AfTeR tAt.wAiT fOr RiChElLe.ShE HaFiN ReMeDiAl WiTh mS yEO.eHh.HaHa.tAt PReTtY GoOd aNd iNteRestINg tEachEr.hAhA.den went rUnNin up aNd dOwn as we aRe lAte fOr tHe mEetInG.haha.opps.den oN tHe wAy.sthh hApPEn.hAiix.not mUchh.jus sUm conflict.chEer richellE up lErr.dun expeCt tIs to haPpen.richelle.i pr0mised yA tAt i will be hAppi.aNd ii aM prEtty sUrE i will dO iit kaEs.i pUt myself intO ya shoes.i pr0mised tis wun hApPen another timEs kaes.cheer up.ur parents cAsE eHhh.wAt ii cAn sAe iS life iS full of Ups and doWns.ya haBb t0 faCe it yahh?cheEr up.ii will be heRe t0 leNd ya a listEniNg eAr aNd chEer yA up.i dUn wAn t0 sEe my fRiEnds withh tAt miserable fAce yahh?richelle cheEr up.eHhHh.dEn wE go shi yA h0usE.hAhA.dEn plAn of wAt we d0.haha..it is pREety iNtEreStiNg.but eHhHhH.mus sEe whetHer they williNg to scArifice theiR l0oks.haha.h0pe s0.dEn wEnt out tO bUy thOse mAtErial.mEet up tsui sAn.hAhA.jAsmine put a Trick oN us.ii wonder wHyEe shE is iN our gRoup.hAhA.bluff uS.dEn t0gEthEr wEnt to popUlAr.haha.dEn mEet elrOy dErE.eHhhH.plAn tO uSE syrOfOAm.iN the end .elr0y briNg us to a place where there is l0ts of cardb0Ards.hAhA.we found l0ts of tiinks there.ound the madascar.hahA.tHe cArt0On la.dEn eVeryoNe tAking all tHe caRdboard.wondering how we bring home.while takin and checkin.elroy and kasmine went to take pictures on us.whHhAaa.ppl d0wn thEre scareaming heavy.they so relax.hAha.bUt it iS wOrthh it.everytiink is jus worthh la.den take taxi withh elroy and jasmine sayiNn goodbyE to us.hAhA.dEn weNt toput .wiTh all type of face and curious l0oks of us takin the cardboard.hAhA.den wENt bACk shi yA house.learn the s0ng and discuss about the sh0w.it is damm interesting.tsui san haf l0ts of ideas.hAhA.tis group cAn dO it.=)

2005-05-29T10:18:00.000+08:00

todae was fun.ehhh...stay at home in the mroning.reading my harry potter book.haha..at the interesting part lerr.at the same time dling games l0r..shit com la..onlii left 81KB while the game was about 201KB ...haiix...den com getting lag..grandparents went out first...meeting richelle at 12pm..and it was onlii 11.30 lyk dat..den read the book..denc nt stand the house quiet environment lerr..so went out early..waited for richelle at about 11.20 for about 15 mins la..lucky she was not late..haha..den went topiin up cARd ..richelle 's plan A and works ...clever her..or she will be broke..sad to see her lyk dat...dun evne ahf money to ..haiix.sad la..but todae lucky lady is wif us..haha..den went downtown to study..went to do my DNT..haha..it was fun..yahh..den went to see TORO..heez.haha..richelle ..thanks ar..u bear a few minutes to let mii see the singing.thank you.ii can see that u dun lyk the singer.u bear wif it..yahh mii touched la..haha.yahhh...ii owe u sthh kaes..haha...dun treat u so bad lerr..ii promised..went arcade plae too...not muchh game there mahhx...so onli plae car racing ?haha..ii win richelle..haha..the challenge is interesting...but she choose manual mahhx...mii choose automatic..haha..life changes mahhx..not onlii haf manual but automatic..ii am those kind of lazy wann.so ...obviously choose automatic..haha
happie memories wif u still flashing thru my mind non-stop.these are meant to be kept in my heart.tiis is wad happen to mii..well.ii make tis happen..ii am the cause..ii deserve iit.

-chu-
-[[life is full of ups and downs
-[[love miracle

2005-05-26T12:05:00.000+08:00

yahh..backk heRe agaiin yahh..last few days were fun..haha..first went out wif richelle to meet up wif yan weii.nick and amy.haha.they are late.always late derr.the time they are not late is the time where the hour hand turn up-side down.haha.plan to buy clothh mahhx.everyone bring badminton racket.goiin to buy clothh.kinda weird lehh.went to eat first.den finally see the couples backk agaiin.den plan where to go.all sae there is a spotlight in plaz singapura.den bo biian l0r..den when the MRT turn to bedok..suddenly tot of the cloth tiink..so go bedok buy l0r.so there will be more time playin badminton.den search for clothh l0r..on the way argue wif yann weii.the white cloth for prometheus easy to buy.den left their group l0r.stupid blue la..search here and there.whyee not red.red is more easy to buy lehh..in the end buy lerr.den all plan to buy the eye 10 to see.whhhaa..it l00k scary.but haha.went to yan weii house there.nv open window ..lights off.watch the tV..whhaaa..damm fun.haha.they all seem so scared.den ii suddenly point to the kitchen.they gave a loud scream ..whhhaaa..so niice.haha..it is quite funny..can see them half way luff half way covered their face.yann weii use newspaper.richelle use my "empty"bag den go cover.nickk got amy.amy got nickk..den mii use amy bag.haha.den sCREAM here and there.whhahaahaha.in the end..after the show all started to tok about it again.it seem scary but it is not la..ii did not even tink of it again.whahaha.so fun.den went down plae badminton l0r..exercise time lerr..beside banning from KFC..olso need to exercise mahhx.den plae here and there.iit is quite a interestin wan lahh..den went home lerr.den these few days went normal...nthh happen.spent happii times l0r..haha.yahh
tiinks may be flashing thru..ii cnt forget these tiinks in a few days.but ii mm forgetting sum..yeahh.thanks friends ..ii pull u down the river.ii am sorry yahh.ii promise i will forget.the powerpuff girls ??=pPpPp

2005-05-23T00:44:00.000+08:00

let haf it end bahhx.if u will sayiin as though as tiis..sorrie if ii haf ever waste ur 6 months time .sorri if i add problem to ur problem.sorri if i let u haf a hard time.sorri to let u stress out lyk dat.yahh.if u tiink about ending.i haf sae no more.ani way .i learnt my lesson.i never regret if u end tis friendship as what friends say we should treasure them before they are gone.and i haf treasure it.ii am sick about it too.i guess u too.no point being together.yahh wat u sae is right.i guess i haf to erase those memories wif u.i knew it was difficult .but i tink i haf to no matter wat.tiis is jus killing mii.two sleepless nights.yeahh.tis is stupid.as a good friend being wif mii for 6 months and now i haf to treat it as a stranger.yeahh thanks friends if u cheering mii up.jus need a couples of weeks and i will forget.ii dun even wan to noe u.lyk wat u sae.whyee ii mus noe u in the first place.i shouldn't.stupid yeahh.i haf to face everytink.jus pretend i dun even noe u.yeahh lyk stanger.wat i wan was a friend sayiin hi or bye tat all.dun expect muchh now.but i guess i cnt.iit is jsu too dififcult.yeahh.19.O5.o5. 12.O4.O5.
yeahhh.tat all wad ii wanted to sae .i wil nv bug u or even cum and disturb .tis is waDd u wan yeahh.

2005-05-17T11:05:00.000+08:00

todae was a good dae..haha.realli enjoy myself.ii start the dae by readin my harry potter books for HOURs..haha..did iit..left a few 500+pages left.haha.den wait for richelle to call..wait till ages..ii was lyk cursing her when 30 mins gone..spoilt my morning plan..plan to eat big breakfast..$2.50 niia lehh...stupid her..down there worryin she takin her big nap...haha..11.00pm she call..tat is the time where the big breakfast end l0r..whhhaaa.!!!sad l0r..den haha..plan to go cycling and plae badminton..todae realli on diet..haha..onli eat fruits and an egg in the morning..haha..den went to pasir ris parkk dEre..haha..plan to reach there by 1..but aR...richelle l0r..eat eat eat...go visit mac to eat fish dippers..hahaa..reach there at 1.20..realli go cycle..whhaaa..realli long long time nv cycle lerrr..bicycle spoilt..at the hospital wing there..haiix..den bo biian haf to rent l0r..1 hour $5..haha..tat goes richelle $10 iin one dae..she hoh..haiix..unlike mii spent m0ney wisely..haha..zer nv cum along..heard waDd rich told mii.go orchard road withh buy clothes ar..hhahah.[red clothes?]=X if she cum along..it mayb more fun l0r..sad..ani way she olso dunno how to ride bicycle..aii yahh..got mii mahhx..oppps =PppPpPp
yahh..den we cycle here and there..sum more we challenge hu is the fastest...actually ii win.den richelle rode past mii..den ii no strength liiao
DETERMINATION...haha..but realli no energy...damm tired..den ii cycle..suddenly fall down l0r..nv injured muchh sum bruise niia..but the bicycle injred..the wire loose l0r..den whhhaaa..under the hot sun ii walk..richelle accompany..y todae so suay wan..haiix..tis type of tiinks happen..haiix..unlucky..
den went to meet amy..haha..they allw an to do IPW tiink the soap..haha...den i tag along cos ltr goinb to exercise agaiin..playiin badminton..haha..yahh..den went to buy l0r..they seem so relaxin..ii was there ...so worried l0r..their IPW ..ii am the wan there so worry..they lyk goiin shoppn pretend nthh haf happen..always lyk to do last minute workk l0r..haiix..cnt ta han them..den ii down there hurry them..haha..they dun care..
in the end..cnt find a single tiink..amy sae need to go the orchard market there and buy..whhaaa.!!so far l0r..scary..
den went highh..haha.walk a few shops ..went to nickk and amy block sum where there to plae badminton..haha..to sae nicer is play..to sae abit not so nice is EXERCISE..mus realli lose weight l0r..beside banning myself not to eat KFC for two monthhs...need to exercise too mahhx..den richelle and amy teAm up ...fight agaiinst mii l0r..whhaaa..ii plae double they plae lehh..they each take quarter court..ii take half court lehh.,..whhhaaa..run here and there.haha..but iit is fun....den raining l0r..no one care lehh...continue playiin...amy down there scare we tomolo sickk ..den richelle sae heck care..haha...ii ani tiink l0r..the game iis fun so continue..we plae until the rain stop..amy improve ..richelle ar...haiix..can sae not bad ..hahha...mii tired l0r..
play almost 3 hour lyk dat nv stop l0r..den went home lerr..todae not bad lahh...stupid zer haf to go buy clothes ..she will regret..haha..iit iis so fun..get backk home..wan to faint lerr..realli tired..my two leg are giving mii trouble...my right hand so paiin..smackkk too muchh lerr..leg run here and there..den iit iis lyk needle pokiin my leg..so paiin..whhaaa..den sneeze ..ohhh no..the syptoms of havin a flu..realli need to take two panadol lerr l0r...damm tired..todae realli burn fats lerr.haha..still wan to plae badminton..haha..gettin siickk lerr..need to rest...whhhaaa..cnt ta han..but tiinkiin about jus now.whhhaaa..nv regret playiin iin the raiin..=X

`u gave mii a wound in maii heart..
`time will heal everytiink
`iit iis so deep..
`can't help myself..
`sorrie ..

aNgiie
-[[shat`tered d reams
-[[jus her alone
-[[she miisses hiim `jus hiim he step down lerr l0r..haiix..less chcne of seein hiim =(
-[[holdin backk her tear..
***wondering what will happen tomolo..
***jus hope iit iis wonderful
*turn a new leaf..the old angiie iis backk.

2005-05-16T13:00:00.000+08:00

well..can ii haf my last word here..and ii will definately put tiis to an end..well..iffahh send mii a letter..yahh...and iit iis red colour..ii am wonderiing whyee she chooses red instead ..whyee not other colour..maybb good colour..red..kk...she wrote inside..sorrie..yahh...tat can be a sorrie letter..yahh..but ..the tiink u do to mii..sayiin ii brainwashed richelle and the tiink u wrote inside ur blog which best describe mii...haf realli hurt mii agaiin and agaiin..ii am pretty sure tat tiis is not the first time we quarrel over those tiink...iit iis more than one time.yahh..ii can admit ii hate u..but ii find tiime askiin myself to gif one more chance to lyk u as my friend...yahh..ii try verii hard..askiin myself..but wad ii get iin the end..a big mess....yahh..tiis tiinks has realli hurt mii...the wound inside agaiin and agaiin hurt my heart..it left a deep cut there..lyk waDd ii sae..ii realli need time to heal..time will tell when ii forgive u...sorrie iif u tiink ii am selfishh or waDd...ii treasure the friendship ..too trust u..and tiis iis waDd ii get..and ii am sad..sad over a few days..when u send mii the letter..ii dun haf ani expression..ii dun even feel angry or sad...so u see...one sentence time will cure tiinks...tiime will be the medicine...
ii hope u understand...
tiinks went well these few days..haha..backk to my happii days..the old angie iis backk here.haha..but tiis angie wun get bullied by the sec ones ani more..haha..gettin to be fierce..yahh..eat nasi lemakk on fridae..whhhaaa...damm hot..ii ate a bit chilli..and iit was lyk..damm hot...richelle is enjoyiin hers...and zerliina was lyk eat the fiishh while everyone iis not..haha..but the fish is nice.jus dat..ermm iit is hot..and dun eat hot tiinks except for KFC..haha..yahh...lyk wad richelle sae hot tiink will make ppl thin..ermm..iif lyk dat..KFC would haf make ppl thin mahhx...but dun haf..make mii so fat..banned for eatiin KFC for 2 monthh...ii dun make empty promise and ii mean iit..=pPpPpp..
yahh..check our fortune..sex life and all those la..richelle got highh..well..she so happii...ermm...ii was abit ..ermm..haha..happii to..healthy iis the highest..haha..ii wun get ill..ii wun get ani illness...no obesity.!!haha..den go visit the tong hua MV agaiin..ii was lyk everydae walk past see walk past see.aii yo..haha..zerliina is beiing touched too..haha..50% emotionall..richelle 80% emotionall..ahhaha..ii am 100%..at least ppl will be touched mahhx..haha..yahh...realli tocuehd ..how ii wishh a boy would do tiis too..but ii am dreamiin..haha..no one will deos tat and ii dun wan blood cancer too..=X
opps..choy.!!!hahaa..yahh..tat goes my dae..and ii enjoy iit too..althoughh iit is simple but haha..lyk waDd mum sae live life simple..hahaha.=X

2005-05-10T21:53:00.000+08:00

haiix...ii dunno whyee these few daes ..sthh iis botheriin..not tar matter lErr...tat wann iis a clsoe case lerr..but jus sthh..ii feel feel sthh iis wrong.but ii dunno waDd..
yahh..ii dun haf the courage to tell u everytiink..all ii could sae iis jus half of iit...yahh..ii am sensetive..waDd jia yu sae..those tiinks kept flashin iin my miind..and iit tiink it is jus touchiin...haiix..thanks jia yu..thanks mum for beiing there for mii..make a promise...goiin to tell u waDd happen no matter waDd..ii hope ii got the courage..yahh...ii cnt live without my friiends..waDd jin kuang sae..although parents see u grow up..but friends are the wan hu continue wif the life.friends are the onlii family u can choose urself..ii haf jus found out it true...seldom haf time for my parents..yahh..haiix..so...
those friiendship tiinks...iis jus almsot the same as last year..those wif beliinda and zhi xuan..almost alike..mayb iit iis how we grow up ..."grow up"stage...
todae..haiix..zerliina ii would lyk to tell u la hoh...ii jus feel tat..u should treat her lyk dat ..haiix..ii haf try putiin myself in her shoes...ii dunno how to phrase iit.haiix..nvm..forget about waDd ii sae.. *pms bahhx..*lonely....
goiin realli on diet tomolo..those healthy way of "avoid"oily food..too fat..and ii haf to keep my promise..ii wun let peer pressure influence mii..and i make sure it wun happen...ii mean iit..

lonely world...
haiix..
be strong tat iis the word...
haiix...nthh iis impossible..
jus tiinkiin postively..
saw mr wong todae..
yahh..ii lyk to thank hiim for gifing mii the chance of beiing a councillor..
without hiim..
ii dunno waDd ii am now..
but ..jus dun dare to face hiim..
haiix...
dunno la..

aNgiie
-[[shatt ered d reams
-[[ jus her`alone..
-[[sad

2005-05-10T09:34:00.000+08:00

yes..ii can sae all these are worthh doiin..well..ii dun meant to go to hidayah and jia yu..iit iis jus dat ..ii dun wna to giif u more problem..ii fiind tat ii haf gave u enuff problem..and tiis onlii affect to mii..ii hope not to affect to u ..ii rather make myself miseable than makiin u difficult to be person....sorrie zerliina...iif ii haf make a mistake in not tellin u and instead tell iit to jia yu and hiadayah..ii am sorrie..ii am a onlii chiild...and my childhood iis living thru tokiin to walls and cupboard..and now ii haf friiends.yahh..waDd ii can sae iis..ii seldom make suchh a wonderful friiend lyk u..yahh..ii noe ppl cum to u...makiin tat u dun haf a dae where u are all by urself..yahh..tat good..cos tat wun make u lonely..but do u noe ii am...finally ii manage to fiind sum one lyk u ..or lyk beliinda or richelle..ii dun wan to let go of the friendship i haf wif u guys..ii dun bear...ii wan to hold it forver ..and treasure the tiimes....yahh...ii told hidayah and jia yu jus to make my heart less empty..and todae finally jia yu came to tell u..tears kept flowiin thru my face ..and onto the ground..tiis tears are all those hardwork ii haf done..how ii treasure ur friiendship..yahh...maybb ii should thanks jia yu agaiin...althoughh sum tiinks are still left iin my heart...and sum unhappiness...jus cnt bear to tell u...tat's all...and now everytiink came to a rest...yahh..ii admit tat ii am a sensetive to...but iif the whole world is not sensetive...the people around will be heartless....do u wan tat..?i rather not..u cnt feel dat way...tat whyee..ppl cum to u...obviously u wun feel tat wayy...and now...waDd u sae to mii jus now haBb clear the misunderstandiin iin my heart..those words ii treasure...the tiimew there iis the tiime ii treasure most..iit left mii wif deep memories...if sthh lyk diis happen agaiin..ii will therefore not cry out iin public ..instead maybb hide to myself and cry iin the darkk....i seldom make tiinks so clear..and dun get used to it now...always put tiink and keep tiinks inside my heart..no ones noe iit..perharps ii did a mistake iin sayiin all out..haiix..all over...ii promised ii wun cry ever agaiin iin those tiinks...maybb.
iin a lonely world
iin a lonely room
ii rather keep myself iin the darkk..
pretend nthh haBb happen..
ii am sensetive .
tat my character..
everytiink over..
a brand new dae tmr..
stop tiinkiin those unhappi tiinks..
jusheralone..

aNGiie
shatter`ed dream ..
[holdiin backk my tears...]
[iit iis jus worthh iit]

2005-05-07T09:28:00.000+08:00

ii dun always appeared so happii ..iin fact ii am sad iin my miind always...
ii haBb no words to sae..haiix...nthh ii can sae lErr..zerliina todae l0ok weird ..strange..whyee did she becum lyk dat todae..iin fact maybb ii realli pluckked up the courage to askk her wat actually happen...ii nv askk those to people before and tiis iis the first tiime..yahh..ii dun wan to end tiis friiendship..iit jus to be forever..maybb ii did the right tiink..iif ii walk off to take my bus home..ii dunno how to face her on mondae...dunno how..about to cry out...yahh...angry tears ii tiink..but ii keep calliing myself not to cry out..yahh...iit should not be a sad tiink..maybb sum conflicts wun make our friiendship more closer ....yahh..ii wan tiis friiendship to be strong..iit wun fall jus becos of these small tiinks...and ii bet it will be lyk dat...it meant to be lyk dat ii mean..maybb iit iis all over and we will be alriight tiis mondae...saw mother..jia yu andre and shing chun ....zerliina went off wiif yann weii...yahh..need some cheeriing words to realli build up my mood...so ii stay..yahh...wiif mother..
went to tok to her..cry out..tat's all..need to cry out everytiinkt at make my heart so heavy...and iit iis all alright after the cry..shing chun andre and jia yu make mii luff...
iin fact ii dunno whyee ii am lyk dat todae..
went home lyk dat...yahhh...

maybb wat jia yu sae iis true..
maybb ii jus dun wan to face the fact..
ii dun wan to noe wat happen if the world is upside down one dae..
and ii dun wan to noe...
can u tell mii how u treasure tiis friiendship
how ii realli wanted to noe tat..but ii dunno how to askk u..
yahh..maybb one fiine dae ii should askk u tat..
ii am scare of the answer u gave..
but ii haBb to face iit lyk dat..

four mroe words to sae i realli treasure tis friendship alot..

2005-05-05T07:30:00.000+08:00

whhhaaa...todae ..haha...ehhh...morning was good..but kanna scolded for science teachher...haha..caught tokiin..haiix...say wat wna mii to see mr bernard...haiix...tokiin cos boriing..but iin the end ot listen mahhx...ii wun do tat agaiin leRr...scary..hahah.but waDd teacher do.."dun do tiis agaiin...u can go now.."lyk dat onlii mahhx..hahaa...but as a councillor..ii should not do..haha..maybb once iin a while..?=X
den chinese teachher scold mii olso..haiix..everyone too did the mistake...haiix..jus pickiin on mii..sayiin whyee ii nv listen..am ii NT..haiix...hurt mii totally l0r...tat teacher iis the teachher ii respect most..she iis the best teachher..but iin the end pickk and scold mii..NT..haiix...hurt mii..iif ii cum from NT ..lyk dat sae olso will kanna hurt derr...wat did ii do..teacher all see mii not happii...haiix...tomolo will be better..[ii hope]
well..after schh was well[waiting and finding my mum...wannted the hug we sae ytd so muchh lErr..ii will realli treausre hEr..and found her..the hug was realli good..love iit so muchh..] in the end go wiif my mother..haha...zerliina..and shing shun ..andre they all l0r..wif yann weii they all..haha..haha..maybb watt ii sae mood went low..haha..sorrie zerliina ..iif ii did sthh to piss off u agaiin...not purposely derr..no mood lahh..perharps tiinkiin of sthh...or hiim?haha..=pPpPp
den went KFC agaiin..ii hope tiis iis the last tiime eatiin tat...dunno ii eat how manii tiimes lErr..growiing fatter..haiix..ltr see mii runnign duriing recess and u noe whyee..haha..ii dun wan to end there...mum will not be happi see her daughter running and suffering under the hot sun..haha..=X
went home..now denn ii found out my ii got a juniior tat realli respect mii so muchh l0r..whhhaaa..feel so tocuhed..so haf to remember tiis dae..where ii believe tat dae his words.."dun treat mii as a friiend..ii dun appreciate..treat mii as ur junior"now ii relali noe...ii am blessed wiif friiends and onme junior..ii promised to treasure hiim..fiind hiim iin between those crowd..haha..shocked to haf suchh a good junior..he iis the bezt junior ii can fiind..=)
[realli blessed] [jeffery]

ii amm blessed wiif the ppl around mii..they rawks..
aNgiie
shatter`ed dreams..
disappeared iin the world..
[holding backk maii tears]

2005-05-04T12:09:00.000+08:00

yeahh..todae mayy l0ok lyk a perfect dae..haha..can sae so lahh hoh..haha..
ehh..got englishh paper..look not confident iin iit..but ii haBb try my best iin these paper...althoughh iit look so difficult..ii jus wishh a pass...never iin my life tat ii stared at my paper 2 jus lyk dat...hahaha..den went out immeidately l0r..sae wat need to buy prsent..haha..den went to search for a present..hahaa..den went KFC...whhaa damm fat lErr...still eat..no choice...=(
went to educare ...miss my friiends there so muchh...haiix..tiink changes so fast...nthh can be done..anii wayy ii am realli blessed ...
hhaha...den went home...tok to my mum..hahah..todae my mum b'dae.haiix..cnt afford to be by her siide..but hope she haf a wonderful b'dae toda.e.unliike mii..my b'dae went thru lyk shiit..aii yahh dun tok abt iit lerr..yahh.den went chatting wiif hidayah...to sae the truthh..ii cry while chattiing..haiix..the advise she gave mii realli tocuhed mii..the way she cheer mii up....realli touched mii t0o..waDd can ii sae to her..
"mum,ii am tocuhed iin the tiinks you do..ii rpomised tat ii will tell u everytiink tat happen and keep u updated ..haha..jus hope u dun miind to hear mii while ii tok tok tok.. you are my best listen ear ii haBb ever got..!!"
to sae the truthh..maybb iic an sae ii am verii blessed to haBb friiends tat iis so caring ...a hug from eachh other realli did cheer mii up so muchh haiix...ii am happii to haBb suchh friiends..ii regret iif ii nv met them..need to thank zerliina too..without the farewell tiink..ii dun tiink ii haBb the chance..haha..althoughh these dae happen sum tiink..yahh ii admit ii dun dare to face the reality..dun dare to face the fact..but ii will try to pretend nthh haf happen before and ii haBb my friiends supportiing mii ii believe..
lastly..ii wishh my mum a wonderful b'dae..luv ya l0ts.!!

aNgiie
shattered dreams
[faciing reality]-[holding backk maii tears]

no one will understand how ii feel
jus hopiing to disappeared iin a hole =(

2005-04-28T00:09:00.000+08:00

whhaa...tiis few days a biit mad la hoh..mii com kanna virus..even a single website olso cnt go iin..sad sad...onlii friiendster and yahoo...nth to see...miss mii blog so muchh..haha..ehh..now iin the com lab doiing sum researchh on home econ..haha...last lesson iin com lab leRr ..should treasure the tiime iin here..haha..next tiime DNt lerr..haiix...
these few dayys can sae not bad lahh...ehh...nthh to tok muchh leRr..
yii chii yu yii chii derr wang jii nii zuo guo derr meii yii ge shii qiing ke shii nii zuo derr dong xii yii zhii chuu xiian zaii wo derr nao haii lii ..nii zhenn derr geii wo yii ge he shenn derr yii xiiang...haiix...nthh ii can do..maybb ii need more tiime ..maybb nmeed a year or two monthh or so...jus tryiing to forget iitt ...giif mii sum tiime..ii am not the wann hu braiinwashhed them..niether ii am the wann hu snatch them away..these are our friiends ..they do not belong to mii...ii am not a "les"lol
tiis blog post iis a crap ..those hu dunno anii tiink ..jus pretend ii nv post anii tiink bahhx..=(

missing hiim..
nebber haBb a dream cum true.
aNgiie
shattered dreamm..
[miing tiian huii ge hao]
[hope to disappear iin the world]

2005-04-24T11:12:00.000+08:00

yeahh..todae quite a dae lahh..nth muchh happen..beiing disturbed by mii mother early iin the morning..jus haviin a wodnerful dream and everytiink iis destoryed jus lyk dat..poor tiink..continue to sleep until grandfather call..aii yo..ii am sae tiink tat ii dun even noe wat ii am sayiin wat we call dream tokiin[chinese]haha..errr..den went to call richelle l0r..plan to study outsiide..todae all mii cousiin iis cumiing and the world will be shakiin iif ii continue o stay at home..haha..went out ..study wiif richelle ..amy and niick ..haha..iin the mac..the cheesebuger song..haha..kiinda funniie..well ended maii dae lyk dat..'

[jus wiish to disappeared iin tiis world]

aNgiie
compliicated liife
shattered dreams

2005-04-21T12:30:00.000+08:00

well..todae sports dae.where iic an see all my traiining the left result ..waiting for tiis dae a long long tiime lerr....but rather anxious ..wiishin the compeition to end quickly...haiix..100m run all my mights..hopiing to get at least a third position...but ii got fourth...tat was the nervous part...whereby mii and ing ing at the same speed ...suddenly ...she speed off...den ii try my best to wiin ..but cnt leRr...in a flash ..my 100m gone..myt thigh becum verii paiin l0r..haiix..ii shed a few tears..ii am sure tat iis not my best orendii..haiix..wat can ii do when iit is all over..ani wayy it will act as a lesson to mii..there will be next tiime..at least ii got a fourth..next tiime ii will try to aim higher position...lyk wat jiia yu sae...continue to stand up and walk when u fall down...there will always be success iin every failure...
waiting and restiing for the next inter schh events..ii am scared..mii thigh iis iin paiin and wonderiing should ii run..iif ii run...nv wiin blame mii...iif ii nv run....they lose ...they will blame mii iin another way too..iin the end ii run..haha..
teacher forced mii to joiin the inter house matchh too..ii was telling her tat ii sprained my thigh and cnt run leRr...she angry...haiix...den sae she dun wan to see mii run the rest of the events ltr too...the maiin purpose iis to let mii rest so ltr ii can run for inter schh...haiix...teacher dun understand...so ii haBb to run..running the first position...got first when ii pass to fadilah..but haiix...sth went wrong whichh make us the fourthh..haiix..fourth agaiin...mii and the number four lyk got fate lyk dat...whyee not three..haiix..after tat run..my both thigh are paiin ..haiix...dunno can run n0rt..
inter-schh 4X100 ...dunman schh team got third or fourthh..haiix...ngee ann iis fast...east spriing iis fast too..jun yuan ..still not badd....when pris pass to mii ..ii got third...den jun yuan pass mii...shit ..she run pass my liine...ai yo...the girl lucky ii nv complaiin...iif nort hab to restart everytiink..haiix..den ing ing the best lahh..she run past the jun yuan..haha..den got third ...schh announce tat dunman "C" division girl got third ..no one cum and collect..heard wrongly...ii tot we got fourth ..dunno lehh...a lot of ppl too ask whyee we nv go collect..haha..ii see until blur dunno whichh wan iis our position..haha..over all ..wat ii can sae iis tat ..ii can always try next year to improve..ii am sure ii will do better than tiis... 4X100 need team work...iff the first runner iis fast..the rest did not cooperate..the team will still lose..ii still tiink teamwork for compeition lyk dat verii difficult to wiin...unless all the four runners realli run with their mights..hahha..next year..ii will try to joiin...ii will improve..[self-confidence]

2005-04-16T11:07:00.000+08:00

todae mii got traiinin nohx..haiix...it iis damm tough...in tiis stage ii jus feel lyk giviin up everytiink ...haviin suchh a good speed of running iis tough...but mr siim sae "it iis once iin a liife tiime to haBb tiis type of tiinks...and mr siim choose mii too."haiix....water iis not enuff.....stright after schh ..haBb to traiin lerr..dun evne haBb the tiime to slack and eat sum food..haiix....sad l0r...run wiif an empty stomachh....
iit end up verii triring....run here and there..ii hope tiis effort would not be wasted...mr siim test us wiif our speed together..den got selcet four ..the rest iis reserved mahhx..ii got iin..hahaha...haiix..lucky my effort nv pay off...den went to look for zerliina l0r...went to play the piano..haha..not the old song leRr..she learned new song lehh...whhhaa..ii am shocked..haha...den keep insisted on hopiing ppl to teachh her one more new song..hahah..giirl haBb to sae mus wait for wiin nehhx lahh..hahaha=X
denw ent to habb dinner..ehhh...serparte wiiBb jiia yu leRr..hahaha..my muscle iis paiin..iit is lyk pullin mii l0r...haiix..how can tat be..cnt even stood down..die lerr lahh....jus now mii jus try mii best to run..and now maybb sprained mii ankle l0r..haiix..sad tiink lehh....cnt even walk properly...need wheelchair..
need to rest these few days..wednesdae iis the compeition..on the dae itself mii got run 100m too lehh...haiix..those hu joiin are mostly those hu is iin the schh team..diie lerr...they damm fast and they are sec 1 niia lehh...need to traiin harder lerr..at elast get one 3rd lahh..haha..NAPFA was not bad..hahhaa...my weakness poiint ii do three niia..last year can do one niia..hahah..cos mr bernard test..den stress mahhx...tiis tiime shuai ge test mii nehh..he stilla sk mii three pass anot..haha...feel lyk sayiin no but hahah..pass lahh...he look so cute and cariing l0r..noe hiis full name todae..hahaha..[iuh oug gnow rm]hahahaa..=X

-[hurtiing words from u]ii try many tiimes to try not to hate u...to lyk u as my friiend..but maybb ii jus dun understand u..tat's all..haiix..wta can ii sae..nth...wordless....contiinue mii liife *compliicated liife*emotionless..lonelly...

t0ng hua gu shii..
shattered dream [iif onlii ii can turn backk the tiime where ii am wiBb u onlii]
+___missiin him____+1 year leRr..
aNgiie

2005-04-10T10:17:00.000+08:00

well..todae need to haBb braiin crackiin..on whether should ii stay at h0me oR should ii go to schh for the thumbs up course..heard tiing yan sae before it is verii fun ...got games..hhaa...not those course whiichh need to siit for hours derr......ii scared teacher scold.....scarebeliinda lonely no one accompany..dEn mii decided to g0..meet them at the mac...came late...everyone was hiighh..the amostphere there iis weird..verii highh type ..not get used..`' den went to schh ....tat course was fun lahhh..the instructors iin mii klass all damm niice.....espiecally the DY ar...hahaha...damm funnie la..err...keep wonderiing why hje keep askiing mii "do u haBb a sister ?"dunno why...ii sae no..ai yahhh..he dun wna to tell mii why lahhh..haha..he cum from thailand ...and realli look lyk the F4 one of the members..hahaha...cool lookiin...den we plae games..do character together..DISC...ii am the "I" type..haha...those active type...the guys iin our klas make a lot of noise ..hahaha..iit was quite noisy..but verii fun lahhh....more nosie more fun...den plae game...when playiing the tree game..hahaha...three person..hui liing run away wiiBb those giirls iin mii klass.,..left mii and beliinda..hhaha...cnt fiind one more ...sad ..den keep hiding..dun let FA sees iit..ltr call us do punishments..hahahaa...but keep hiding..den he saw lerr.hahaha..aniw ay it is verii fun lahh.....plus the two so called new trainers ar...from jrong siide de..sec three wan...quite quiet lahh..not those hyper derr.but cnt blame them too..hahaha...but fun lahhh..teach us to adapt and accept..hahahaa....the most meaningful part was when DY tells us the story of the two dollar note....when iit is beiing crushed ..ppl still wans iit.....beiing step on the floor..ppl still wan iit.....the moral of the story iis we are as precious as the $2...no matter what happen..each tiime we fall..we are still lyk the $2..still got value..hahaha..to sae the truth..tiis story realli wake mii up....hHAHAhaha..after tat same old tiink happen lahhh...go eat...and eNd mii journey....

[u guys haBb change....no longer the sum one whom ii noe for long....u all change to be as wild as hiighh as last tiime..and to sae the truth..ii dun lyk tat..and not used to tat...wat can ii do..?still prefer beiing wiif her..[do u noe hu u aRe]...the quiet and precious tiime....the everydae ii am wiiBb u tiis week ..realli make mii wonderful..ii wan to be wiBb u to haBb suchh a wonderful tiime together..but ii noe tiime will change..and tiinks wun be the same as last tiime..jus hope iit will bE...the bestest friiend and the closer wAn..ii haBb iin my liife...]
ii am dreamiing

iif onli ii can turn back the tiime`compliicated liife.

2005-04-09T11:57:00.000+08:00

[[how ii wishh ii could be the one hu turn back the tiime...turn to the happy moment ii am wiif u...ii realli enjoy the days wiiBb u....but ii still tiink we are more close last tiime....the tiime we spent together iin every place of the schh...the memories ii haBb wiiBb u ...yes..ii haBb found a realli true friiend ..whome ii noe iin my heart tAt ii will realli treasure...and will not let iit go..let our friiendshiip contiinue ....ii do not beliieve iin forever...but ii still believe we will last ....and ii dun wan to lose iit..god make the choiice to noe u ...ii am realli happi and forunate to haBb u as my best friiend and a friiend hu realli noe all my secrets...these few days wiBb u....those days are realli my happi wan...u wun not wan mii to be sAd ...u wan to see a happi "angie.."ya..ii will make sure tat realli happen....=)
ii am known as a only chiild..last tiime...ii dun realli care for friiend..all ii noe iis for myself....right after knowiing tiis great friiend......we realli do all the tiinks together....although sum tiime we may not haBb tiinks to tok..]]-do u realli understand..? *ii am not a les*=pPpPp
todae was a great day lahh hoh...ii am wiithhh zerliina agaiin..hahhaa....no different lahh..will always see mii wiBb her derr...see her lyk seeing mii there ..hahaha...get used leRr....=X todae got choiir..hahaha..watch the band lunchh tiime concert...haha...iit was quite good lahhh..but the sound verii loud...quite scary..hahahaa..=X went for luchh iin the canteen ..got free food to eat mahhx...choiir derr..mr toh cum..iin fact ii realli respect mr toh alot lahhh........gfuess everyone too...he iis the one hu make a gold iin choiir..hahaha...=) den went to plae the piano...realli lyk seeing the piano beiing play ....lyk to see the finger touchh the key whichh make realli great musiic...tiis is wat cheer mii up when ii am down....den went for election.,......wriite three person name down l0r..hahaha...the three ii choose is unexpected deRr....but got potential mahx...haha...=X den went to long john wiBb hidayhh they all..hahaha..khairul sad l0r....he damm goiod and fortunate.got almost 13 seniior lyk consoliing hiim.haiix...denw ent to eat.....haha...den go walk walk.....got problem lerr l0r...the "HU" tiink..hahhaa..they are solviing..all thanks to them..we gave hiim tot he group and now tiinkiin to lyk take hiim out..but difficult ..got ppl thickk skiin lahh..den zerliina and khairul go first..left mii and the rest....den stay wiif them l0r....went to MAC to eat ..and siit l0r..tired liiao..hahaha..all the way till 7 lyk dat..hahaha..shing chun makiin fun of hiimself....jia yu ....andre ...too learning the cantanose..hahaha..den luff here and there...haiix..ii am fat...haBb to face the reality...but still cnt..haiix....8kg lehhh...iit is so fat l0r..haiix =(

`tong hua compliicated liife....[iiff onlii ii can turn backk tiime]imposiible..haiix =( *faciing reality*

2005-04-02T01:05:00.000+08:00

todae seem to be a bad dae...got back my result?n0pex...ii did not get mii progress reoprt....teacher insisted on seeing my parents...so cnt giif yet...haiix..my mother workiing..mii papa manager.....busy...of cos he would spent time to go see teacher.....but he stress lehhh....haiix....the incident of shoutiing so loud...and the incident of knockiing hiis head to the thick books tat dae..the incident iis now flashiing iin my miind jus lyk a cinema...ii will nv forget tat dae.....and tat tiime..ii promiised myself to work even harder for my studies....not to disappoiinted my father...dun wan to be his next victim ...dun wan to be shout at..haiix....but now..ii failed....teacher wan to see parents..how amm ii suppose to break tiis news to my parent..they work so hard for mii educatiion..ii disappoiint them.....ii noe ii can do iit ....iit is the four subject whichh ii get 3 or 2 mark to passing mark.....haiix...failure la..iif ii failed 3...still can get back paper..iteacher dun let mii pass literature..tat the problem...haiix...scinece...teacher did not teach properly...maths...moral of the story learn to be humble....sayiing is no use at all...do iit to let myself see is the most important tiink....and now..ii am tiink of how to break the news to them...ii noe no matter wat..they will olso need to noe and haf to sign..ii noe ....CME teaches us self respect..self confidence...where are they.?searchiing for them...haiix....indeed ii found lerr.....but...ii told my mother before wat ii failed..wat she sae..instead of giifin mii support to do better next test..she look disappointed....she did not sae ani tiink..i blamed myself...ii am the onlii child which seem to be the onli hope for my parent.....and ii did tat to let them see....but without their support..how am ii goin to face them next tiime..how am ii suppoes to haf confident of hafiing better grade on mid year..whichh iis 5 weeks after...haiix...die lerr....aniw ay..ii will tiink fo the solutiion....
todae zerliina cry...dententiion tiink...ya..she iis scared...ii noe ii cnt calm her down...she iis good at cheering ppl up....and ii am sure ii am not....lyk wat she sae to mii on the phone ytd niite....onlii noe a biit cheering words.....but no advice...so...nth can be done....ani way...stay beside her .....throughtout to let her problem solve..iis ht emost important tiink..lyk wat ii sa.e.not good at words.....actiions can mean everytiink too.. =) [ self-respect.]todae got SYF preview....iit was pretty out of tune.....and sound ugly....haha...audinece noe how to clap and sae verii good...cos they dun noe wat iis good music...?haha...=X
lyk wat mr toh sae....hafiin a tiink lyk dat iis a challenge to us...and learn our mistake...todae choiir ...was quite good la..interestiing...fallen asleep....haha...too tired...lookiing forward for tmr schh functiion..haha.....it gonna be fun...well...zerliina left half way the choiir..?haha...she siick la.....go home rest...worry for her..?toh check haiir l0r...haiix....sundae..need to get hair done...shiit l0r....my haiir lyk dat good mahx...can see eyebrown mahx....den good news...can wear home clothes on sundae to schh for combined..hahaha...so happii... =)
den end choiir at abt 6.15 lyk dat...den saw jia yu cry...sae wat toh sae not suppose to cum for schh functiion ...sae need to rest..ppl go out shoppiing ...they all olso dunno..den we even schh olso cnt goo...haiix...lookiin forward..dun care ani tiink lerr..jus goiin... pretend nth happen...toh nv tell mii cnt go....haha.....goiin to schh iis better than stay at home..nth to do...haiix.....jus follow wat my heart follow..cheer up...
get well soon zerliina...
4 more days to shawn b'dae....[gonna do countdown..]

aNgiie
compliicated liife...shattered dreams`broken hearts....

2005-04-01T11:10:00.000+08:00

todae was a moody dae...haiix..after recess...got all the girls hu fold skirt or shorten skirt to cum out...denn surely got tiinks for us to do....den we lookiin at those girls short..ting weii go lerr..one by one go lerr..left five......beliinda iinside..ii worried for her ....haiix...my friiend iis there struggling cos of her short skirt...her fingernail...haiix...den got scoldiing from li liing as veri late go up....wanted to wait for zerliina at the staiir ....scared li ling scold agaiin..we didn't did ani tiink wrong.......haiix....bo biian...den zerliina cum up her won..jus soi far behiind mii niia...den afterr schh....wanted to go report to mr bernard..den bernard saw mii first...den call mii cum..den ii walk there ..ytd scared tot whyee he so fierce...but now not scared..didn't do anii tiink wrong..scared wat..he told mii to be his uncovered...whhhaaa...den went wiif zerliina....she tuck out shiirt ..act realli lyk those bad student...whhhaa..ii dun even dare...haha...den walk walk see see look look...no wan lehhh..den went back report....told bernard.....yu jiian the gang sae biing got smoke last year...whhhaa..mii uncle lehhh......after dat went up wiif zerliina for her higher chicken chiinese...hahaha....was late obviously.....den pass hW go down lerr...den ii sensed sum tiink realli wrong lerr l0r...haiix....she...haiix..wat to sae...seem to be so jealous...nth to be jealous abt iin the fiirst place....ii am not a les....but ii treasure zerliina friiendshiip la...haiix....tiis is normal...richelle told miii she wanted to cheer her up from the tiime where we went out lerr..she dun seem ok...but richelle faiiled....saw zerliina...she hiigh....ii dun noe the meaniing...we are doiing duty.....and they cnt follow.....show black face olso no use....she should understand.....ii hate myself...simply sucks.....should not go atrium to see bernard iin the first place.....den wun happen sth lyk dat.....my fault..ii sae a biig sorriie..ii dun meant to make her feel so lonely iin the first place...ani way we are friiends...sum tiime friiend dun act until so fake .....ii mean there iis always maroon 5...iif one iis not there ..there will be another...ii can bet that no wan iin the grou-p hate one of us....so ..dun worrie too mcuhh..tiis post..not to meant to wriite to let u noe ii hate u...iit iis jus mean to let u undersatnd ...ii dun wan too muchh misunderstandiing..there will always be us there for either one of us no matter wat happen..

aNgiie
compliicated liife.. ` jus there to hold my tears `
ii simply sucks

2005-03-31T13:42:00.000+08:00

well...haha...todae quite wonderful...todae zerlina and iffah go CIP and was told that we cannot follow...so decided to stay iin schh to get some homework done...mii and richelle went out to get some food..hahaha..eat instant noodles...den wan to cum back.....rain heavily...den we dun care jus run l0r..den iin the end wet..hahaha....enjoy the tiime where we study..hahaha...we plan to do maths...hahaha..den mii and richelle dun noe how to do..plan to look for mr lew...den mr lew not iin..whhhaaa ...whenever nth to ask..always saw hiim...todae got problem..suay suay he not iin..sad l0r..den cnt go to the shelter agaiin......cos raiining den went to visit the piano....hahahaha.....den about to go back..saw shuaii ge ..whhhaa.!!!!den richelle stupid la...go quickly run bakc...dden stand there was lyk so weird and obvious...den go back...haha..manage to do all my homework...hahaha..the richelle down there struggling about how to do maths..hahaha..den ii told her to go see whether mr lew iin she sae wat dun wan....hahaha...ask her so manii tiime lerr.....still dun wan.....go la..one bird kill two stone lehhh....can see the shuaii ge agaiin...den she noe the motive ..pruposely dun wan...haiix
band got preview tat afternoon...ii realised when band haf preview..need to pull chairs and their instrument ...and relaised tat choiir onlii haf to briing ur own body there will do..lyk wat mr toh sae..the instrument iis iin our body...so l;yk dat more worst...need to take care..iif the instrument spoilt......still need medicine..den sth happen to richelle todae..keep askiing mii "iis my haiir messy?"hahahaa....got motive too?hahahaa..MR hOT?hahahaha...=X dunno...no offence..hahahaa..den went to TM....veri sure tat we will see zerliina..hahahaa..den tot go take pictures go take a look at the precious thots first...den go out the shop saw familar figures..hahaha..zerliina l0r..hahahaa..den went there....walk walk wiif her...denm go home....follow zerliina home agaiin...get used liiao....den they plan to walk to interchange..hahaha..den walk and siing at the same tiime...siing lyk insane women......sing at the top of our lungs..but realli enjoyed myself todae..hahaha
"
aNgiie
compliicated liife...`ii simply suckks

2005-03-29T11:32:00.001+08:00

well...todae seem to be a wonderful dae wiif the moroon fiive...hahahaa....quite lame wiif tiis name la...but jus bare wiif iit...=)
heard mr siim sae tat ii will be haviin a run wiif nicole tiis afternoon at 3..scared l0r.hahahaa...after went went to tat corner agaiin..zerliina finally played the new song....not siicked wiif iit liiao..but cnt sae new la...not new to mii ler..hahaha....the final fantasy l0r..hahahaa..learn from amy...all thanks to amy..or ii will be siick for the cannon iin D song agaiin...hahaha....well ii am there worry abt the run ltr on....scare lehh.....zerlina and richelle gave mii stress..say tat ii mus wiin nicole on tat race....mus not lose to her..she iis netballer..never noe her tiiming before...ii scared..haiix....they will be there supportiing mii..ii hope ii will do iit..
3pm past....waited for mr siim for about 15 miin...went to look for hiim ..haha...saw shuai ge on the road..hahaha....damm shuai l0r...haviin PE tomolo..will get to see hiim agaiin ler...=X
lookiin forward..haha..there mr siim came wiif a red flag......nicole came confidently l0r.....haiix...100 metres...ii diid iit..haha../.manage to get 14.9 second for iit...and race past niicole..well..cool...tot she netballer will run fast...haiix...get to the aim ii wanted .......16.5s wat mr siim wans ...ii manage to get iit..hahaha...happii....ii was iin..ii was scared lah at the same tiime..but went to celebrate...haha..happi l0r....
den after eatiing so call "dinner cum lunch.." went home..went to take 291 wiif richelle and zerliina...cum back take 3 wiif iffahh..hahaha....tat wat ii mean by compliicated ...well tok alot of crap iin the bus..w.at mr sexy..wat mr loliipop wat mr mac...ehh..iffah aR....ii change the mr hand to mr sleepy ler..hahaha..u noe hu lahh...ani way hu cares l0r......hahaha...enjoy my dae..hope everydae are full of adventure..love maroon 5..u guys simply rawks....=PpPp

d r e a m l an d ` compliicated liife.faciing reality...

2005-03-25T04:28:00.000+08:00

what ii can sae was yesterdae ii realli spent my dae verii well.... after schh...we waited for zerliina for her "higher chicken chiinese"lesson to be over..zerliina sae sae wan to go home..well we plan to go home wiif her....leaviing one of the moroons iin schh .....sad....but got company mahx......den so called follow her home.....den on the way...keep takiin pictures for zer and iiffahh......they act here and there iin the "28" bus ....den mii and richelle edit the pictures until "bu xiiang yang" hahaa.....iin bus act lyk siiao kiia..throw Ngee ann face ......zerliina go out of her house wiif a sad and angry face.......she vent out all her angry tears..haiix...her mama lahh...take her hp away..her jie jie dun wna lend her..den her papa dere quarrel wiif her..amke until zerliina shout to them...and even cry when she iis out..but weather changes verii fast...she iis happi agaiin..wen to haf mac .."take away de.." zerliina on diet .....eat friews onlii sae herself veri poor..inside wallet got $10...ifahh and zer share driink .......iifahh nv buy any food...but her wallet got $20+ ...riichh l0r...mii and richelle buy food to eat...and we consider "poor" onli got a few dollars iin wallet niia....sad case...4.30 follow by sectionals.....altos keep practicing on the "hic" to get iin tune..us4e all type of actions....hahahaa...jus to remember the "hic" tune..den 5.30 went to take the bus...altos and spranos not the same bus...whhhaaa...sad case..hahaa...
same old rule...last wan iis a pig.....mii and iifahh sit together iin the "magiic schhh bus" ...ifahh becum siick iin bus..keep down there shake here ......bounce there....make mii follow her ......down there "jia you" jia you.."damm high..den haf dinner...guess wat.."mac agaiin"whhhaaa..ii sick abt mac lerr......sad...den mii and amy shared wan...cause mii veri full lerr..but still haf toe at....ltr goiin to siing mahx....
folllow by lookiin at the choiir siing...follow out turn......well..ii used to standiing on the siide lerr..now mr toh make mii stand iin the middle..ii not get used .....sum mroe behiind mii were tenors....whhhaaa..they blast l0r..amek mii cnt even hear mii voiice...sad case...haiix....dun even noe when ii sing out of tune....heard mum sae...haf to listen to altos l0r...after tat got sectinonal for 15 to 20 miins......den haf another tiime on stage..did better lerr..can hear my voice....yay..!!...but mr toh sae it is worst..haiix......diie lerr lahh.... nvmiind....haf to work harder .....=)
hahahaa....

eNd mii adventure.......
-aNgiie-

2005-03-24T10:44:00.000+08:00

todae aR...cann sae good dae...plan to wriite a post for ytd ...but almost forget wat ii do yesterdae lerr..so nvm la..heck care so muchh..!!todae ...richelle nv cum schhh..haiix...sad case....sum how of missing her iin schhh......whhhaaa....she siick..hope she iis realli well tomolo for the choiir tiink...hahahaa....todae ...got dententiion cuty...whhhaaa.!!!the zerliina hoh...tell her to accompanny mii to do dentention..run here and there....nv even siit on the benchh for 15 miins...iifahh accompany mii ...hahaha...we tok for sum stuff...den alan and weii sii joiin iin...jia weii nv cum l0r....tot he will cum ...whhhaaa.!!!ytd sae lerr...todae cum trick mii....where can lyk dat....den continue to slack all the way to 3.30...no one cum for sign iin...siit there lyk no one lyk dat...tat iis the problem why ii hate dentention duty.....ii prefer outside schhh...hahahaha....den mii ..zerliina and iffahh waiit for the amy...hahaha..goiin TM to get the spects......amy derr...she change to frameless..hahahaha.....den eat dinner outsiide wiif zerliina...dun wan to go home so early mahx..so decided to take 3 wiif iifahh home...hahahaha...denn iin bus tok a lot of craps....she tok abt her sum one l0r...tok until shy shy lahh...hahahaa...dun need shy lerr...iit iis not a secrets lerr..ii guess iit iis a public tiink lerr......hahahaa...den....we tok here and there..tok a lot of stuff...den suddenly sum one change thet topiic ...sayiing abt the seven wonders..??hahahaha..den ii sae sum one last tiime haiir lyk bowl...den iffahh hit my stomachh....whhhaaa...paiin lehhh......realli mahhx....but now not bad lerr........iiff iit is bad ....iffahh wun lyk mahx....so.... so so lahhh....iit iis not my taste...dso no offence......den iffahh angry aR....den tok abt another guy...whhhaaa...ii dun lyk l0r.....stupiid ..den saw jerrold iin the bus whhhaaa...suay aR.....den keep suaniing jerrold....jerrold learn quite fast la..can arrow back and suan iffahhh..ahahaha...fredrick......too bad..even sec one noe lerr lehhh.....diie lerr..need to help iffah buy mask lerr

d r e a m l a n d`
dreams are meant to be dream tat will nerberr`cum true....
-aNgiie-

2005-03-22T13:16:00.000+08:00

todae went out well....go together wiif zerliina..everytiink iis back to normal..schh reopen lerr....my happie days are backiie..hahaha..=X
todae get result larr..not so interesting l0r....fail science..haiix.....the rest pass wif b3 niia ..hahaha..ii will try my best next time...tiis is jus the beginniing..=)todae CME make mii learn so manii tiink...hahaha..thanks to mr peterson..hahaha..
well after schh went out not bad lah..hahaha..sum tiink happen to zerliina l0r...haiix..she iis sad ..she cry..my heart break.....ii dun lyk to see my good friiends cryiing ...haiix..i feel myself veri useless ..cnt manage to cheer her up tat muchh....haiix.....ii didn't noe wat to dso...dun noe hwo to cheer them up when they are down ....but when they high can tok crap la..haiix...zerliina dun tiink so muchh la....nth will happen..i will always be by ur siide ..lendiing a shoulder for u to cry on..hahaha...i am serious .....at least i manage to be wiif zerlina when she iis sad or happie...hahahaa....to let her feel better..ii realli hope she feel better.....zerlina mood change...but ...ii tiink iin her heart or miind..she will still be sad and tiink fot these tiinks again..i wish i am her miind to keep all the memories away....haiix..too bad ii am not..

went to eat wiif her...sth happen when ii went back...zelrina case agaiin...todae iis so suay l0r...haha...mrs neo called my grandfather...cos of zerlina mama.haiix....nvm la..i dunw an to tiink so mcuhh..nth will ahppen..next tiime be more repsonsible....call mama or papa before goiin late home and nth will happen l0r.hahahah...smart mii.......at least we mange to solve case together.....be thru thiick and thiin..ahaha..=X

aNgiE =) [fadiing memories]

2005-03-19T13:10:00.000+08:00

yesterdae...sth small happenn lahh...mii and zerliina...sum how of quarrel together..jus becos of a CD ....i feel iit so stupiid...jus becos of one CDs.....i told her i return her CD to herr lerr...but she was lyk dun quite believe.....cos tat wna not her CD mahx...cnt blame herr..den ii was lyk followiing her upstair..i was shocked iin her attitude ....cos tiis iis reallii the first tiime zerliina scolded ....sum how of angry wiif mii.....she even go iin the council wiif the curtaiin bangiing iinto her...she was so angry....den she found her CD back iin the council..she was so happii...haiix..mii lehh....i shouldn't haf giif her tat attitude..but ...i cnt control ...jus becos of one CD......i was so hurt iinside...so i ignore her..at the same tiime .my heart was tiinkiin.."did i ever did wrong anii tiink......am i riite to be sad and left alone to cool down...."...haiix.....sum tiime i wanted to be left alone to cool myself and to reflect......i dun wan to end tiis friiendship so early...iit iis so enjoyable and funn......sth need to be solved..haiix......iin the end...i let iin.....becos i realli still wan her as my friiend..friend hu will lend a shoulder for mii....share my sorrows and happiness ...

todae went out to be a good ...can sae a bad dae too..todae sayiing result..?dunno..i scare l0r....mr toh keep holdiing the audtion result....becos i noe ii willbe kicked out l0r....i realli sang so out of tune iin audtion...haiix.......he keep takiing and putting down.....becos of tiis result tiink i nv sleep well ytd niite...haiix...keep turniing here and there....cos i spent so muchh tiime iin tiis SYF tiink lerr.....den cum another audition ...to chase ppl out........lyk veri wasted....haiix....=(
iin the end mr toh nv sae ani tiink...and i dunno whether i am iin anot......he one dae nv sae..one nite wun haf a peaceful niite ....haiix....i jus hope i am not chased out after all...it is so wasted..i noe myself i am tired and stres out becos of tiis SYF...cnt siing properly..cnt do tiinks properly...siince i put iin so muchh effort..why not continue...?u wan ur own dreams to cum true..u haf to set goals and targets......so here i am to set my own target...haha...to make the impossible possible........to make my dreams cum true...iif i am out...tis is olso for the choir sake.....aiming for gold is a hard tiink...consist of hard ship ad teamwork....so iif a person go out of tune...mr toh realli haf the rite to kick them out..tat goes for mii....[p o s i t i v e t i i n k i i n g]
haiix......jus hope dreams wiil cum truue......one fiine dae..

missing hiiim.... [d i e r c h i i a i i s h a n g n i i ] ....=)

truefull dae...

2005-03-15T13:32:00.000+08:00

todae iis a dae where i will neberr neberr iin my liife forget...iit iis the most perfect dae i haff.....started my dae by goiin to eat iin the mac...follow by playiing the piano iin schh..hahaha....acoompany..iffah..zerlina..and richelle..to schh mahx..hahahaa.....den plae lots and lots of song...hahahaha...now den i noe playiing piano iis so funn...=)
well den we spent half of my dae iin sch lerr.....zerliina and iffah went to do project...sayiing good bye to them..mii and richelle ..dun wan to go home so early....nth to do too..hahahaha...decided to go bugis walk walk.....went to tamoinese interchange to eat eat first....hahahaha..mii eat yong tao fu.....[richelle cnt eat..too bad...]hahahaha..richelle eat a big plate of chicken chop worth of 5 bucks...hahahaha..woow..!!so biig l0r the plate..tiis is wat we call "a person cnt judge by looks..zerliina eat food eat so small plate l0r...richelle is happen to be thiin and she eat so biig plate..biig appetite...hahahahaa...den we went to take MRT....hahahahaa...we stand iin one corner...shariing the story of liffe and death....interestiing...tiink i nv hear before....hahahaha...den reach bugis lerr....we saw fredrick.....clemmy...warren ..dan they all l0r.....whhhaaa lau....suay l0r....jus now saw them iin sch niia,....walkiin around.....now iin bugis....weariing home clothes lerr......72 biian..hahahahaa..
den mii faster my pace.....stupid them....down there dunno shout here and there.....lol..den went to take pictures..hahahahaha...=)
tis is the place where those guys wun go.....hahahahaa...we manage to choose one machine..den went iin to take....21 pose leh..siiao...hahaha..but it is worth iit.i lyk the pictures veri muchh..=) so niice l0r.....den went out decorate...the machine suay suay break down....den ppl haven design finish...whhhaaa...den waited15 mins....iinside got ppl takiing den outside got ppl decoratiing.....den ours iin the middle derrr....disappeared lerr l0r...suay.....take another tiimes..tis tym orendi veri tiring lerr....not tat niice...hahahhaa..but enjoyable..hahahaa....while waiting ...whhhaa.!!!saw them iinisde the neopriint shop l0rr.....tot they wun cum iin de l0r...whhhaaaa.....saw them cumiing iin l0r..those guys...whhhaaa...pissed off...den mii and richelle..playiin hide and seek..hide iin a machine hole..den they cnt see us iinside...hahahahaha=X tiring liiao.....still haven to hiide...ltr they shout names iinside the shop..i dun noe where all my face gonna throw l0r......den mii and richelle go walk walk around bugiis...hahahaha...veri fun lah.....
but saw sum one l0r..haiix...whiich totally make richelle so sad....whhhaaa...i first tiime see her make her eyes so red l0r....scary..den she keep sayiing out her tiinks...whhhaaaa..i heart break...i dun lyk seeing friends to be so sad derr ...haiiix.....my best friiend here sad l0r....haiix...i cnt do anit iink to iit l0r..confront her l0r...try to make her betta i change the subject .......haiix..i noe iin her heart she still tiink of tiinks de l0r...tiinkiin of them....and how they treat herr..haiix..they realli too much liiao...realli wonderiing did they ever treat richelle as her friend l0r..haiix
i cnt do ani tiink but to listen to wat she says...haiix...hope she realli feel betta abt iit la....bdun tiink so much....without them..u still haf mii here.....i wun left my friend alone wan.....but it is indeed scary and sad tiink..haiix
den we went to walk around raffles ..hahahahaa.....leg cramp lerr....sum more todae so early meet...tired liiao..den went back to tampinese ...hahahaha....went walk walk agaiin..hahahahaa.......see tiinks around...
and ended my wondeful sae lyk dat....hahahaha...so sweet l0r..

i ended my dae wiif a smile everydae on my face...=)
missing hiim......no matter wat happen to the earth....ur cute face..ur small eyes...ur bright smille.haf indeed make mii fall deeper in love wiiff u.......every niite...when eeveryone iis sleepiing soundly......i am tiinkiin of tat days when we first meet each other...where i first fell in love wiif u..the feeliing is iindeed veri good....veri true...when i see u...my own face turns red.....and i manage to smiile...jus den i realli tiink i am in love wiif u.....

xiiang nii.....zhen zaii xiiang nii....=)
-aNgiE-

2005-03-09T09:35:00.000+08:00

todae de science test is hard manz....i dun even understand one single questiion wat they askiin abt.....all those cum out nv even learn before..and those whiich i learn ......nv even cum out....wastiing all my effort on studying so muchh on iit....whhhaaa got regrets le.......compo was slightly easy lah...haiix...my science hopeless le...can change teacher anot..the teacher is good is kiind..but i dun even undertsnad the lesson she teachiin......den got the piig behiind mii noisy...how am i supposed to understand....tomolo history....and chiinese...i hope i will do betta ..got improve...
after sch...in sch a while plae l0r...actually wan to wait for jia yu they all..but zerlina sae she wan to go home early to study..den ok l0r...go KFC eat lunch cum dinner....mii becum piig le la....if i continue to eat chicken..i am fat le l0r...i promised myself to be on diet ....but jus cannot control......if zer eat long john ....i will not eat..den can go on diet...haiix...now...too ba le....but it is fun inside playin and craping..hahahaa....
todae i saw hiim...poor hiim...dunno wat haf happen....but sth to do wiif the teachers........plae sum more la...get into trouble liiao...

3 more days to richelle b'dae.......10 more days to yan weii b'dae.......5 more days to jeffery b'dae...[countdown for u all..]hahahaa.....enjoy ur dae....richelle...we plan to celebrate ur b'dae together..!!!!happi mahx..hahahaha=X

2005-03-07T12:29:00.000+08:00

jin niian de wo yi jiing shi si sui le.....shii yii ge piin fan yu yii diian xiiao mii hu de nu shen..cong xiiao dao da ....wo jiiu yi zhi zhu zhaii yii ge xiiao jia lii......sui ran you yii diian ji mo...ke shii ....neng he peng you zhai yii qi ...wo yi ji heng kaii xiin le....fang fu shii ge zhi you de xiiao niiao zhen zhai wu ji de lan tiian feii......qu niian .....wo guo zhhe yii ge hen kai xiin de yii niian rang wo you le qu duo meii hao de hui yii......zhen zhaii gen shi weii zui hao de peng you zhaii yii qi...yii qi zuo gong ke ...yii qi wan......duo kaii xiin.....ke shii.....shii qiing bu xiiang yii qiian yi yang le...
zhe yii niian ...wo you le xiin de zhu peng gou you......sui ran guo zhhe piin fan he kaii xiin de rui zii......wo cang cang xiiang zhhee yii qiian de wo.......ta meng biian le.....kai xue de shi hou......fang fu hao xiiang bu ren shii wo le.....wo hao nang guo....ta men shuo wo biian le...ke shii.....zhhe shii yin weii wo you le gen duo dong xiin yao zuo......meii kong gen ta men......ke shhiii...ta men hao xiiang bu lii wo le...wo hao shang xiin.....wo hao huo huii geng tat men guo le yii niian...hao lang fei worz....wo kao shu le wo hao peng you....wo de shii qiing..ta men shuo shii zhe yang de.........ta men biian huaii le.....wei shen me ta men meii tiing wo de huo le....wo hao huo huii.......shang xiin de li kaii le ta men...guo zhhe li yii ge kai xiin de xiin shen miing....wo hen kaii xiin zhhe xin sheng miing de peng you gen wo heng yao hao......you xiin shii neng kao shu ta....you nan guo de rui zi neng he tao guo......xian zaii de wo sui ran gen yii qiian bu yii yang ..ke shii wo huii hao hao guo de....yiin weii..wo du aii wo meii yii ge xiin peng you....ta men gei wo le zhe reng gan........gei le wo an quan gan....rang wo jian chii tao dii......

tiis year i am 14....am a normal but a biit blur giirl ....tat year when i gorw upp..i live in a liitle house wiib my parents as i am the onlii chiild....although it is lonely ..but i can go wiif all my friends around..i enjoy it verii muchh.....last year...i am a veri happi giirl ..i went together wiif four of my good friiends...we do homework together ..plae together......i was jus lyk a biird flying in the big blue sky wif freedom...i can go ani where i wan........so happii...but tiink nv go well the next year......they jus ignore mii......jus pretend they dun even noe mii..i wanted to noe wat happen.......they told mii i change totally......yes i did...becos i haf muuchh duty to do as i am promoted to be a councillor...tot they will understand mii....but they did not..they ignore mii..jus lyk enemies....i was sad...tot tiinks will go welll/.but it did not..and now..i haf my new friends..they too treat mii veri well..i treasure them hard......as i dun wan to lose them lyk wat i did last year........they did not listen to mii....i was sad....heartbroken....they did tis to mii....i told my best friend abt tiis...and she told mii...tiis is normal...so i leave their group quietly ......now ...i treeasure my friendship wif my best friends alot.....i dun wan to leave them as wat they are..........when i am happi..they share my happiness..when i am sad they are there for mii to cheer mii up...friends over there...thank you for wat u haf done....i noe nth can be done to pay back the tiinks u do to mii....but i will treasure u guys muuchh.....and hope u guys do...and not leave mii along...=)
u guys rawks...!
tiis is wat i tot suddenly...nth recently happen....i cry these few niite ...becos i recalled the past......they are cruel.....=(

ANgiE....

2005-03-02T13:23:00.000+08:00

tis world is full of unfairness......todae make a more complicated matter ....no matter wat i die die olso mus write out wat i feel...or else i cnt let tis matter end...todae i dun wan them to feel bad ...so after sch i went wif hidayah they all..how i wish i am wif zerlina l0r...but i jus dun wan tiink to be more worst..as i feel whenever i am there iffah will feel left out if zerlina tok to mii.....i dun miind zerlina toking to iffah more than mii.......but zerlina sae it is unfair to mii....i eman i rather be lonely....let them happi together l0r.....in order not to make iffah feel bad or wat......i go wif hidayah they all....but i dun noe tiink becum worst...zerlina will be thinking i wan to be wif hidayah they all ..dun wna to be wif her le...but i am not.....i wanted to be wif her....but i wan tiink to be clear.....dun wna iffah to be lyk yesterdae....so i went wif them.......but worst.....i admit i cry out.........becos i jus cnt express how i feel...crying is the best solution le.......no one realli understand mii in the world.......i am goin to let tis tiink rest...see wat can i do to improve on tis friendship of three....i still wan to be wif zerlina.....they are my close friends......i dun even bear to leave them......haiix.....tiink went lyk dat......i hope it will stop...i hope zerlina will understand how i feel...why sum time i am not wif her....not i dun wan........i jus wanted to be a good guy.......to elt them....to make everyone happi........tsui san cheer mii up todae........she make lot of funnie tiink...thank you.....tis tiink will end no matter wat..life will continue the same routine as they are...and nth will make mii feel tis way ani more.......nv...!

misses hiim...saw hiim todae..i was so happi..wanted o see more...but too bad cnt.....

[xiang nii....xiang nii]

2005-03-01T11:58:00.000+08:00

i am sad..haiix...no one realli understand mii......y do tiinks always cum and fiind mii for trouble...i wanted those unhappiness tiink to past and be the real mii...tis is not mii.....i am happi and cheerful everytime...unlike now ......unhappi and always haf a sad face ......well.....i wanted to change to be back the past mii........todae happen to be a moody dae...[i bet]..i was so happi tat the two of them is back again......although i feel veri lonely sitting alone on the sofa while they are playin the piano together.....but i feel veri relaxing....they are together again make mii feel veri happi......i mean i rather make them happi together and mii sad....i noe tat unfair......but ....tis world is full of unfairness...wat can u do to it..?i haf been to it so mani time these few days....she need her so much than i wan....after tokin to hidayah and jia yu........they tok mii lots of tiink which make mii feel veri touched......so i can see.....she need her badly..she treasure her more than i do....from wat i can conclude.....she should treat her back well.....i called and told her everytiink..she pester mii ...so i tiink tis is between us....so why not tok out....i told her...i nv expect her reaction to be lyk tat....but i noe tis is normal.........she wun feel ani tiink.....no one will understand mii...i jus feel tat....becos of mii joining their group which make it three......which create so much unhappiness together..last time when i was not wif them.i can see the happi faces of them everydae..no matter where or when...they were lyk the bestest friends of the world...the happuest ppl....but when i join in..i saw differences in iit........there are more misunderstanding between the two of dem....i feel veri bad veri guilty..but wat can i do..?i dun bear to leave her...she is my friend where i bet i will nv fiind such a best friend in my whole world.....i realli feel happi being wif her....but wat can i do..?is tis unfair?can ani oen tell mii..?i jus haf a word to her"treat her well...she treasure u a lot..."trust mii...... =(

missing hiim.......everydae and everynite..i pray to the god tat u will be safe and happi everydae....nth will happen to u..if i will choose blessing for..i will count u twice...becos u are important in my life.........but i noe it is impossible to haf u....jus hope u are happi and i am much content..

=[it is evertiink u do make mii fall in love wif u...there isn't anitiink tat i can show u ...ever since i cum to noe u.....]=

2005-02-26T12:51:00.000+08:00

todae is the dae......where i becum a fully invested councillor...quite excited l0r....the time when i be on the satge...where i get to shake hand and take my councillor badge and tie...so happi..everyone is congratulating one another ....but i feel sad todae suddenly ..tot of sum tiink veri sad .......haiix...i noe i shouldn't tiink of those and should put a sad face...but i cnt control my sad face...sorrie guys if i nv answer to ur question..sum time i feel to be alone....sum time i would lyk to tok to sum one i trust veri much....tis time i tok to hidayah ...i fiind tat ...she is the onli ppl i could tok to........becos if i tok to jia yu and zerlina...becos ....they will feeol bad abt tiis...and i dun wan ppl to feel bad abt tis le l0r..i rather make myself sad .......and the two of them will call mii not to tiink...they will call mii relac....and they will feel bad inside....i wanted to cry jus now....but i dun wan...tis is my dae.....wat for....pi mean..my life is lyk dat de....nth can change the fact abt tis....so let it be...but i dun wan to push another ppl to be down...hidayah give mii a lot of cheering words...and advice......make mii feel betta.....maisie wanted to put on the badge for mii..not i dun wna to put now...it is becos i feel veri bad ......i dun wan to put the first time...when i am sad ......so i jus tiink i am not worth in coucil.....haiix...but i will try my onli best.......=)

missing hiim.... =)

2005-02-24T12:44:00.000+08:00

well.....tis tiink mus put to an end by todae le.....i regret telling the three heads abt tis tiink......wat they realli sae..make mii more confussed....haiix....all thanks to liling and jia wei..they help mii ask mr yap....but wat is the real problem is tat whenever i am free i will always tiink hwo wat mr yap scolded mii tat dae...and wat he sae..and the six words...how i wish i can forget that l0r...but how..?veri difficult..it has orendi inside my miind le....difficult to erase tat scolding out of my miind..everytime i cry is always the scodling i am tiinkin of and not wat they cheer or ask mii.....perharp i need more time to erase tat off my miind....i take tiink too seriously le...haiix...todae went perfectly well after tat incident after recess ......everytiink went well.....do dentention alone todae l0r....zerlina go crocodile farm.....jia yu andre busy wif tat investiture tiink.....shing choon go to take passport photo.... hidayah went home...so sad..but time seem to flies fast....den went up to look for jia yu ....saw jia yu wif winnie ....they doin the doorgift tiink....den i go there help help l0r....so sad ..jia yu haf to go for piano lesson..tot i would haf to wait alone for zerlina.....but lucky got winnie.....she waited wif mii ..hahahaha...she goin wif us mahx....becos she nth to do too..hahahaa..den went out eat l0r....we tok lots of stuff inside the KFC...dunno why wif winnie...u will nv scare u haf nth to sae...we lyk parrot lyk dat..keep tokin non stop..hahahahaha....but it is so fun...love tis a lot..hahahaa..

is tis unfair to mii..?i tried not to tiink ..jus pretend nth haf happen before ..but i jus cnt do it......wat can i do..?haiix..maybb i need time....

2005-02-23T12:00:00.000+08:00

sad dae todae...sum time i tiink should i be in tis world.....sum times i do tiink should i be in tis sch...sum times i even tiink should choose to be a councillor...haiix....todae was a unlucky dae for mii......mr yap told us to get ready a pen and an A4 size paper for todae attire check as he is goin to check on guys hair and socks and wan us to wriite down the name.....well zerlina went to help mr yap...mr yap call mii along...at tat time i orendi tiink sum tiink is orendi wonrg...but i went .......mr yap pointed guys out and call us to write down their name on tat peice of A4 size paper..i did follow his order .....everyone hu is being call were cuirous why their name is written...i told them...they tok jokes among themselves and luff i didn't not luff i knew i cnt as i was doin duty ......mr yap call one klass to stand and go after calling names...and mr yap pointed two guys behind asked whether i written their name....i was wondering...jus now he nv pointed those guy behind out and now he pointed out..so i copy..he shout at mii and sae ..... "dun be biased write down the name whom i call u to write ..!! i will deal wif u ltr.." these few sentence realli sturck mii..i was tiinkin insde i am not biased l0r...i dun even noe huthey are how wun i be biased ..sum more jus now u nv pointed them out jus now..i was damm worried wat he will do to mii..... :'(
well he shout mii veri fiecely....he scold mii tat being a councillor cnt be biased.....haiix.....sum more wat my badge and tie are for...i am not worth in council.. "i am not fit in council".... these six words realli struck mii l0r.........i realli nv do ani tiink wrong i am not biased ....haiix... :(
why tiink which do is wrong...do tis wrong do tat wrong..i feel lyk sitting in a quiet place to reflect myself wat exactly i haf did wrong....... :( these few lesson after recesss was a wasted le.i was crying all dae long..."i am not fit in council..."did i realli did ani tiink wrong....i put all the names mr yap told mii..i did i acutally did wrong......haiix.....sum times i realli tiink should i cum to dunman ..why should i take tis as my third choice...haiix....can ani one answer mii..wat i haf did wrong..?now...the whole sch noe mr yap scold mii.....whenever i walk past ani where .... they will asked mii question...well fridae is investiture...after tis incident i dun wan to walk on tat carpet to go up stage le....i dun wan to even take my badge and tie le....everytiink is runined ...dun even haf face to face the whole sch...haiix...gossips everywhere...wat should i do...?Can ani wan tell mii..?? :(

2005-02-22T01:30:00.000+08:00

can ani one tell mii...?wat i did wrong exactly.....haiix...my mum came and ask mii whether i was free tomolo.......i was telling her i got choir and it gonna end late..she was so angry..and i was shocked......she was shouting and sae"wat a useless girl ihaf born...help mii do sth olso cnt"...my whole miind was iin a blank when she sae tat to mii...i wanted to be a guai child ...i mean wat i exactly do wrong l0r......i realli busy wif choir stuff mahx......choir was so stress up le......if i free ..of cos i will help u...but i am not......but wat she do...she scodl mii ...haix..i jus wanted to noe wat i haf done wrong l0r..i do tis olso wrong tat olso wrong.....veri difficult to be person ...haiix....i cnt express my feeling now..i feel ylk crwaling in a hole and hide there forever....not to let ani one sees iit..haiix
not i dun wna to haf dinner at home...council investiture end at 7...i went to take bus straight home from interchange.......i was tiinking ...should i eat...it is so late le.......go home bath...sum more got a lot of hWs to be complete tomolo....vocab test to learn...geography test...so mani teat..jus becos i dun wan to fail ani of the tests....dun wna to get scolded by teacher for not doing my hW....jus becos the sake of tis..i skip my dinner..and i told mum abt it...wat she do..scold again..not i dun wan to eat...sum time i jus wiish to cum hom early...eat and immeidately do my work......tis year is streaming le...jus wan to do sum revision...so tat i wun pass so badly tis year.....haiix/.i scare my parent to disappoint mii again..but neither do i wan to get scolded by my parent without doin ani tiink wrong...but wat should i do..?no one will noe de...no one understand how i feel..how i wanted to be my mum favourite again......but againa nd again..she dun lyk wat i do...and i always get scolded by tiink i dun understand why i get soclded even as i do the same tiink..hope one dae they will understand mii....now i jus haf to tolerate..and edure.... =( sad mii.......*sob* *sob*

sad angie........hope dreams cum true.....realli hope so parent will understand wat i do.... .=( but i noe it is impossible... =(

2005-02-20T23:38:00.000+08:00

todae was a good dae..hahahaa...went to jia yu house mahx..went to meet wif daya ....zerlina..maisie..and shing chun...hahahaha....y ppl lyk to be late aR....sum more shing chun jus wait up on the time we wan to meet...clever l0r..ii am not late..i wait there for 15 mins....lyk cockoo lyk tat....but nvm la...at least they got sae they will be lat...nv blame them..i should blame myself y so early wait....since i noe they will be late...den went to jia yu hosue...her brother damm high mood...he even eat the toy fish l0r...i was so shocked...she spilt saliva..well.....all run l0r...hahahahaa..den jia yu cook spagetti....well to sae the truth . tis is my fiirst tiime eating spagetti...nv eat before....becos i dun lyk....but i haf to try wat jia yu cook mahx..and tat was delicious la..hahahaha....den went to plae hide and seek wif the two guys l0r....fun nahx...but veri hot...hahahahaa...den see jia yu plae piano l0r....i lyk seeing pplplae piano...it is so romatic and sweet l0r...and sum more..they noe the note on how to plae..and plae it fluently..whhhaaa...so nice l0r...hhaaahahaa...den we siing sum song.....hahahahaha..so nice...so happi....den we take pictures...we left at around 5+...maisie and zerlina were late..so they shiok ...take taxi....well i went TM wif yan piing to take pictures it was so nice l0r..addicted to takin pictures liao...die le..hahahaha...den went home...end my dae...veri fun...wanted to thanks all those hu brighten up my dae..hahahaha...nv regret knowing u guys..u guys rawks..! :D

=) my happie and wondeful dae =)

2005-02-19T20:50:00.000+08:00

todae ..everytiink went up rite..nth goes wrong...went to wait for zerlina at the small mac...ready to get reharsal for the council investure....and it would turn out great next fridae..hahahaa...it will be the dae where one of my dreams cum true.....todae was tiring.....learn how to stand ...sit.....turn ....together...turn out well la...i wonder..if onli the dae cum quickly it would be great....ppl will not tease us as we will not trainee le....not onli tis ...duty list will haf my name..and on june i will haf my own mentee le..i will take care of them properly...hahahaha...teach the way khai yew teach mii..??tell them hu is my mentor..??hahahah...of cos i will...make them proud of mii.....it end early as i expected todae..den is lyk nth to do..but we help the seniors to do the investiture tiink..hahahaha....we should realli thank them.....becos of tiis they stay back to do....so mii zerlina and ke hua help l0r..den they hungary..i help them buy...i go to the bbtea there to help them buy......ready to be alone there..becos zerlina and ke hua wan to help...but if i am alone i will still go buy....is lyk they doin the investiture tiink which make them so busy until cnt even buy food l0r...i even tis onli cnt help them.....how abt them..??.... trainees should be honour l0r...got senior stayin up to help....and not us..we are the one hu is invested but the seniors do all the job......it is not fair.....i am so touched....den go plae piano l0r..-__-lll den went home...wonderful dae...tomolo will be more wodnefull..goij out..heez... :D i am goin to enjoy myself..

she misses him badly.. =(
cnt get to see hiim tis weekend.....

=[ everynite i counted the star and match each star wif a reason why i love and fancy u....instead of other.....]=

becos u are cute..kind hearted....cool....and wat u did realli make mii touched and wanna fall in love wif u...nv regretting in my whole liife dat i love u...becos i noe it is worth even though u dun fancy mii.....i understand...loving a person is not wrong....being loved by a person is not wrong either....so i should be lucky to noe u...or else i wun noe such a wonderful guy .. -nV regret iin my liife-:D

2005-02-11T20:19:00.000+08:00

it happen to be a wondeful dae todae l0r...hahahahaa....decided to went to buy the valentine dae present tis afternoon....morning went by good la.....so so...todae morning dun noe why dun haf the mood to tok l0r...hahahahaa......maybb tiinkin abt tiink la...hahahaa...new year celebrate seemsa to be funnie l0r.....but dun noe wat they showing....becos sit behind cnt see onli can hear..hahahahah...=X
den afternoon go wif zerlina and iffah......hahahaha....went to eat KFC...ai yo..i plan not to eat luch and dinner...and now they are lyk eatin make mii wan to eat..den bo bian go eat l0r..hahahahaa....ai ya...nvm de.......dun eat too much can le...went to century to go see wat to buy...hahahahaa....went ij yellow...my heart broke.....spent a lot of money there leh......jus for a gift..hahahaha...but i noe it is worth it...den hug and kisses....i buy a ordinary present la.....veri simple..dun wan buy so conplicated...got alot of feb babies tis year......sad case..money gonna fly..hahahahaa.....but all my senior mahx..so cnt la..die die olso mus gif.....den we went in and out for six timesfrom hu and kisses l0r....but at least got buy sth la...i am waiting for tis cuming mondae..hahaha..VALENTINE DAE mahx....so happi......although to mii not lover la...but got friends mahx..can celebrate...treat it as friendship dae l0r..planning not to buy for hiim le.....haiix...dun noe wat he lyk olso....ai ya...but i will send a card..hahahahaa.....:D

she misses him badly.......

the new mii....

2005-02-08T11:50:00.000+08:00

THE NEW Mii.....

these few years gone thru too muchh sorrows.......and happiness as well..ppl often sae i often haf a sad face than hafing a happi wan..........sum tiinks haf gone thru........which make the new "mii".......i was now trying to be happi than to be sad often......lyk wat friends sae to mii "let by gone by gone..." "every ending haf a new beginning.." and now it haf been the end of mii...and the new start of mii.....but before tis happn..i wanted to thank "zerlina.." "jia yu.." for their advise and cheering up toddae......well i finally understand wat they told mi........why they confront mii..wat is the meaning of "friends"well..without them i wun be here le........i nv regret hafing them as my friend.........their word by word haf wake mii up.....their caring haf make mi touchh....thnak you for sharing my sorrows and happiness......make my world wonderful and full of colours
thanks hidayah...whenever i am sad..i am free to fiind her....hahhahahaa....she sang mii "tat wat friends are for.." which realli cheer mii up....i am happi and lucky to haf suchh good friends.......
thank you khai yew......for make a differences in my world.........although u are not a councillor le...but to sae the truth i respect u a lott...i owe u too muchh to return le....=)without him i wun be here le......i wna u to be proud of mii.......and i realli hope u will.......

well although i gone pass friends hu betray one another.....friends hu make ppl upset and angry.......but i found out.....in my heart...friends are important to mii......espiecally all my good friends...........they care a lot for mii.....cheer mii up when i am down.....share my happiness and sorrows.....i will too treat them the same......i wan to let them noe they are worth doin tis f0r...........i wanted to change all my bad points and be the new start of mii..new year is cuming....todae is eve...well....i am not good at tokin ..hahahaa..i will stop here le.......

the new miii............starting world....
hope my world is full of colours....friends changes all ym world to a wonderful wan......before i left i wan to sae a big "THANK YOU TO THEM".....and ;lastly i love them.....=)

2005-02-07T20:48:00.000+08:00

well...a meaningless dae for mii....i haf my choir audition...i can sae it is bad la...but i jus hope i can get in SYF..i pin a lot of hope in choir ....well..i will jus haf to wait for the result....
i am thankful for the person hu teach mii...and make a differences in the past...well...zerlina not quite happi...i dunno how to express my feeling out...it was sum tiink tat was sad la...haiixx..wat did wrong which make mi tat sad.....well..although he is out of council...i jus wan to treat him a coucillor can i..?i wan to thank him as he make a great different in mii..wothout him i wun be a councillor in the next 5 or 6 weeks .........well...but wat he sae realli make mi feel sad ....or rather mixed feeling......but wat can i do to it..?he is not a councillor...but can i get a request tat i treat him as my mentor forever....well......although i haf maisie as my new wan...but it is jus to make sure i haf duties in the morning and nth muchh le......he is the wan hu teaches mi rite or wrong.......wat is rite and wrong..but he denied....haiix....tis is wat i can describe my feeling...i cry......well....he lyk tis paritcular girl ..well....hu is the wan hu make him noe her..?well......but wat i get......haiix......sae hi and smile to her...?well i am not jealous or wat...but i felt....he jus so called "ignore " ..well..i am rite beside belinda...can't he sae hii to wat........NO HE DOSEN'T...WAT HE DO..SMILE TO HER ONLI........well....sorrie if i urt u la....but tis is how i venture my anger...tis is the onli tiink i can venture out..i am the onli child in the family....i tell my friends... no one understand....well tis is the rite place where i can write to......haiix...
"it is all in the past....u can be thankful for the past...but ttreat mi as a friend.."well i do treat u as sum one betta than a friend....a mentor....well u did sae a mentor is sum one hu teach u rite tiink and not the wrong wan./.....i can sae u did teach mi the correct wan..or i wun be standing wearing a tie and a "council trainee" badge now..............thank you......well....but i jus wan a request tat u let mi treat u as a mentor.....i dun wna u to treat mi a mentee..but can u let mi treat u as a mentor....mangaed to make mii sad...and touching....int is particular way..i jsu wan tis wish.......but wat u do..?"i wann to tell u tis long ago......pls treat mi as a friend and not a mentor.."well.....when i hurt tis...i jus wan to crawl in the hole and did nth now....and to scream......i feel hurt.......haiix.....thank you for sayin take care......but...i hope tis will cum thru.....jus tis wish will do...?? i wan to make u proud...well....if u dun wna tis mentee...i dun mind...i am useless i noe..but i still wan tis mentor....i am proud of hafing u as my mentor.....i am realli proud.....i am so happi..i remember the first time...when ppl cum and tell mi "u are so luky to get him as ur mentor...he is good..."everyone was sayin tis to mi.....i wan to noe how my mentor look lyk...and time flies...now....my mentor is gone..he dun wan tis mentee of mi ani more..how can i not be sad......

i hope tis nv cum to mii..but in the end it find mi..i tried not to cry ...but i cnt........ :'(

2005-02-01T09:30:00.000+08:00

todae is quite a meaningful dae...lolx...teacher nv cum to klass...hahahaha....yay..!two teacher leh.....finally free for 6 period...hahahahaha...but a lot of hWs to do leh...but not tomolo pass up..hahahaha...haf to learn vocab test too..hahahah...sad case manz.....todae after sch went for the meeting l0r....well...crap tok abt tiink lyk the NyAA form l0r......den call the january babies to cum out hahahaha...i am one of them..den sing b'dae song.......den call us to pick a name from the envelope den haf to buy present for them as a valentine dae present...lolx....take a girl name becos short of guys liao..hahahahah.....i take until jasmine de l0r......haf to start saving money le..i spent all my money on zerlina present ..and i haf to start the spendthrift session liao..hahahahaha....=X...well after tat went to eat wif zerlina....yan wei and iffah...but iffah dun wan to go..she went home wif her friends la....so left the three of us l0r....haix..i always felt left out de...but nvm la....as long as theyare not bored or wat i happi liao.......i get used to becum alone le mahx...i am the only child mahx..hahahahhaa.....denw e talk abt guys stuffs all tat l0r....after tat go walk abit den go home le....zerlina .......dunno quitting a not...she is half way thru the correct track..i felt sad for her manz...she told mi and yan wei she maybb quitting..which make my mood suddenly becum low.....as i veri happi when alan can wake up her ..and now she is back to her sleeping le..i hope she can wake up l0r....haiix.......she will regret if she continue..and i am not good at tokin de .....den veri difficult to sae wat i wan her to noe ...haiix.....not worth to quit leh...haix...i kept veri quiet ......zerlina see mi sad sad ...den she knew le l0r....zerlina i sad not becos u leave but instead u make the wrong decision ...u noe....u noe how muchh effort jia yu took to make u until a good councillor ...everytink olso noe....den now half way le u goin to quit as in give up..if i am ur mentor i will olso be veri furious l0r....jus tiink...haix...and u are one of the lucky mentee hu get jia yu ur mentor u noe......how long i wiish i can haf a mentor..jus a mentor will do...but wat i get in the end...haiix...mentor quit...u see....tis the a rare oppertunity and u goin to waste it...u haf orendi been in so muchh effort to becum wan and u are quitting ...can't u see jia yu so happi when she heard u not goin to quit.....haiix.....zerlina pls wake up la.......jus now she saw mi so sad she was so call say she dun wna to quit l0r....but zerlina......i dun wan u sae den nv do l0r....and i dun to force u to stay in council if u dun wan to l0r.....u will still not be happi if u been forced ..but u haf to noe ....wat is the reason u wan to becum a trainee.....and half way thru quit...there is no reason l0r...and wat jia yu teach u will be gone l0r...she use so mani effort to teach a mentee....and now....it is jus lyk "game over "...haix.......wat can i do...nth .....but to wish and hope u haf make the correct decision and dun regret it..... =(

i tried over and over again to wake u up....u noe i am not good at tokin ..but i dun wna u to regret and i noe when u quit tomllo u will regret......but wat can i do...i wish i were ur brain now...to wash all the negative sides away so tat u wun tiink abt quitting council...i dun wna u to sae and nv do l0r..it is still not use........i olso dun wna to force u to stay as i noe if i haf the person in the council but dun haf the heart ou will olso not be happi........wat for becum a trainee in the first place as u gone thru so mani and u wan to quit half way thru........u noe u orendi tell mdm ng and mr bernard is being informed.......but one can change a mind....jus tell them again..and wat the reason............no teachers will so called blame or do tiink to u..if bad cum to worst tell mr bernard urself first.....well mr bernard wun scold ani wan for no reason de......and mr bernard heard u goin to quit den let u de....he wun let such a good councillor gone l0r....zerlina pls tiink it carefully....

tis isn't oodbye ....iw swear i wun cry even as tears fill my eyes i swear i wun cry..pls make ur decision carefully.....and if u tiink it throughly i wun blame u ...i will still respect ur decision...but i wun accpet an answer as in u orendi tell mdm ng u goin to quit...but i noe u wun bear..and u will reget if u do.......haiix....sad dae... =(

2005-01-25T10:55:00.000+08:00

well todae special dae..my b'dae l0r....but aniway not so in a mood to celebrate it.......well.....i got lots of present..all thanks to all my friends hu wish mi happi b'dae........and gave mi present..well is b'dae supposed to be a happi .....well i can sae i did quite enjoy my b'dae la.....but sum tiink sad came out la...haix...zerlina realli can quit council le l0r..i damm sad.....todae actually she can quit le....but she deicded to do until tis fridae...well i cry tis afternoon..i cnt bear her.....welll.......everyone cum and cheer mi up ...everyone was telling mi tat zerlina haf the choice to choose wat she wan...and if i wan zerlina to be happi i mus respect her choice...welll.......i dun realli noe y she wan to quit..all the happi times and fun days we haf durning duties and in council room.......haix...i realli cnt bear l0r...haix......i cry out....actually wan to celebrate it wif zerlina de.....she dunno why dun wan..sae she todae not in the mood la...haix......wat can i do...?all my fault if i nv cied ....zerlina wun be crying too...all my fault.....if i nv cry zerlina nv cry we would be celebrating my b'dae together todae......... :( stupid tears ...why mus cry out.....i dun wan ppl to be unhappie or sad becos of tis tiink....and i am the wan hu started it....sorrie guys if i make u guys mood lyk dat...i dun wan to...........i rather crawl in a hole to cry......why i mus cry out out of a sudden......haix...i realli dunno how to express my feelings......but ani way i hoppe zerlina will follow her choice ....and i wanted to tell her.."zerlina,i cry all becos i can't bear u.......well i need sum time to cool down.......and i will be ok in a few days.......sorrie zer if i spoilte ur mood..."haix.........wat can i do....?... ...

tis isn't goodbye even if i watch u leave .....tis isn't goodbye..
i swear i wun cry even as tears fills my eyes i swear i wun cry.....

2005-01-23T08:39:00.000+08:00

well todae went out wif hidayah..zerlina and iffah to buy b'dae present for andre...pathetic man...get a present on his b'dae morning...meet at 11...went zerlina wake up at 11 sharp jus as i sms her.....ai yo...mkae us wait for her for 30 mins...hahahaha....she came wif a reply.."whhhaaa got hp can bully mi le lahx....hahahax.."tis is the disadvantage of havin a hP...hahahahaa.....but wat else to do...get a scolding after she cum...two women in black..hahahahaa....saw mei yi and vivien at small mac while waiting for them....whhaaa tat too unlucky l0r....kk nvm.....den we shop at tM and century for his stuff...ehhh hidayah plan to buy a addidas water bottle which cost him 25 bucks ...hahahahaa......she brought 40 bucks ....so it is quite cheap orendi....went to have long john.....tok abt choir stuff too....sad case they went to altos .....have to put all their best if they wan to get in SYF it is quite difficult to learn alots when u haf been in spranos last time.....two different tones...hahahaha..den went century....hahahaha...went KALM lorz....i damm sad case when i see all the me to you beAR....it is sooo cute l0rz....looking forward to my b'dae which is two more days....whhhaaaa.......waiting for my dear richelle present...=X...hahahahaa......sum more zer keep suaning mi saying wanna buy tis for andre.....whhhaaa i heart broke manz....it is damm cute l0rz...so touching...i wish i own tis shop...hahahahaa....well den hidayah told us dat andre reach tM orendi....we were rushing l0r....mi haven buy present..went to hugs and kisses...hahahahah......no time le ...so buy sth there for him......share among mi zerlina and iffah...hahahahahaa.......which cost 22 bucks plus wrapping and card...hahahaha...lucky..den went to small mac......well.....do hW...and tok a lot of crap there .......hidayah was sort of high tat dae..keep luffing...hahahahaa....den andre cum..den we wish him happie 'dae...continue to tok crap den went to small mac to wait for jia yu...inez.....maisie....hahahahaa.....den mi call mummy ask can go along mahx.....shocked mother sae can....den i go....but sad case no money....no ez-link...tot theuy staying ......but instead they wanted to go town l0r....haix...no money lehx.........hidayah and andre was sort of taking out money for mi..i was so touched.....cnt go so far away mahx..they keep tinkin where got near place can go de...i feel veri bad.........andre himself is a b'dae boii give mi money.....sum more wan to go tat place but i cnt....haiix.....so i told them i go home which is the best solution...after muchhh toking i went home..mi and iffah..can see tat iffah wan to go home...well i left zerlina there ..sad case..but i can see zerlina wanted to go..i wanted to go too...but i no money...hahahahha...go sorrie ar..zerlina......but i tink they haf a good time there l0r..hahahaha.....

2more days to my b'dae ...heez....

2005-01-14T11:24:00.000+08:00

well everytink went perfect todae...but got sum sad tinks too.....well todae during recess.....i am the onli one hu mangae the canteen....iit was in a big mess...zerlina scolded willam....haix....den i went here and there....go to the malay stall and the noodles stall.....i cnt realli manage.....haix...i cry....tat time i cry i feel veri diffiult...i sum tinme tink should i be in concil.....or i am not suitable so.....well i realli in a veri difficult position....3when i cry i felt tat concil was a hard tink and i feel lyk quitting.....well...after sch went for remedial .....for 30mins...den go for wchoir....extra practice...after tat...went to eat mac wif zer...iffah....richelle..and yan wei.......we plae fun..but i tink we left iffah out...she was eating veri quietly......haix....becos we speak chinese......but she seem lyk not happi when we all go wif zer.......haix....y mus we go seprate....wy cant we be together....lyk tat more fun.....y...??haix....maybb when being wif zer onli she felt not left out...?or we left her out.....ai ya..dunno...but todae was nice....

2005-01-14T07:48:00.000+08:00

todae in klass went up well...it is jus tat too muchh hWs.....todae duties was so so la.....i jus dun lyk their attitude ...haix......todae go assembly.......performing hari raya tingy...hhahaha.,......most of the 1G dun understadn and keep tokin...well i doin their klass but it is much fun la..betta than stay down there ..surely sleep de...hahahaa...den go eat eat l0rz.....go wif vAndA.....go eat instant noodles at the each a cup....go toilet half way saw bing quan...i hate him..i quickly glare and run away....stupid guy...den went back....kann late for choir......vanda la...half way tok to ppl.i sae left one min..she tot bluff wan........choir went up well...hahahah...den went out wif richelle ...zerlina .....iffah and maisie..went crab and lobster wif them....hahaha..luff here and there ...enoy myself..den went to the kalm...hahahahahaa....well...saw the me to u bear..!!!!i am so happi man....if my favourite guy give mi i will surely love him deeper......ai ya...i keep wondering and wondering.....hahaha...i tell zerlina ....den zerlina sae she will buy one small wan./..den i sae the whole shop she call mi wait long long...hahahaha.....den went home wif richelle...hahaha...end my adventure here....

luving u.......missing u.... :D

2005-01-10T13:04:00.000+08:00

todae will be a evaluation dae la...i went to my grandmother house to do my hWs..tons of hWs for mi to do.....well but i mangae to do finish the hWs in time.....and i still haf the time to hang on to my com.....shiok manz...hahahahahaa......these few days i tink a lot of tinks la....tink of wat ms koh told us....wat is my goal and achieve ...wat is my ambition..??well..till now i still dun noe y i need to study leh....in s'pore we need to haf cerfiticate to live on la.....so...tat is the particulAr reason why l0r...the day before ytd choir was good la...haf the welcum party for the sec ones...i done my jobs ..hahahah...mostly 1F came to join choir and all went in...hahahahaha........but a lot of ppl went tenor and bease la...sum girls went altos....hahahahah.....well..den learn sunset....well quite good la.....yesterdae went to out wif vanda...hahahaha....princess mahx...need ppl to wait for her 15mins...den she came..we went to bugis....hahahaha....take neoprint l0rz...soo happi..it is damm nice man not onli nice la...it is fun too....we choose a long time leh..becos got a lot of machine mahx.....so i wan tat wan..vanda wan tis wan...den finally get a wan whom we two lyk la....hahahahahaha......den went walk walk...whhhaaa so nice..too bad cnt shop too muchh becos nv bring enuff money..vanda left $0.50...hahahahahha......den cnt....but we promised each other to go out shopping after 2 weeks......cheers..!=D.......vanda rawks.......she treat mi eat leh...make her bankrupt.....so sad......but i still mus thank her..tomolo a new mondae...hahahaha....need to improve sth on tis mondae....hahahah..=D.....

2005-01-06T09:58:00.000+08:00

tis is how a 2005 year will continue....klass will be quiet all the time....as we haven noe each other quit e well yet....well tat can still wait.....but 2005 which is a brand new year haf make everyone change for now and for once.....everyone change all their attitude......2004 was a fun year......sec one camp for us.....and all those friends to noe each other.....but now...haix....sum one went to becum a ah lian...sum earn bad tinks....sum tok bad tinks.....sum dye hair....the person i haf a good impression of totally change....they change into a person whom i dun recognise their attitude but onli their name.....y..?is it so cool to becum such a person..??is it fun..?is it fun to haf a gang outside to help u fight back if u haf ani trouble.....everyone go thru a brand new life wif a fun dae...last time world war 1 &2 and now....even all the klassmates and friends are all change....haix...y..??ani way...todae after sch was quite a fun dae la.......went to haf my dentnetion duty....tok to kai siang they all..hahaha.......kai siang go choir leh...damm happi for him..he was jus lyk my brother whom i take care of...hahahahah...and look upon of....den went to tok...well i saw "him"todae...hahahaha....quite happi la.....but wat can i do..?still be myself mahx....yan wei all those guys keep tokin on HER...haix...ppl change onli mahx.....she wan to change wat can we do..?maybb they are jus caring abt her...friends changes they will kanna shcoked wan....try it before le....ya....end my dae in sch lyk dat...quite a fun dae la......enjoy hanging around wif the concil friends...they rowk man...now all i believbe was them.......i haf been backstab by sum one le.....i noe the feeling......i wun nv ever trust them.......haix...wif regrets......=(

2005-01-03T18:30:00.000+08:00

todae was the first dae of school..it happen to be veri crowded la....but got duty to do...well khai yew quit concil le....tat was veri sad la...i lost one good mentor le.....hAix....he quit and left mi alone...i haf to do duty wif maisie...she was good too...but to sae the truth khai yew is muchh more betta than him.....start off to do bookshop duty...hahahaha......well i saw all the sec 1F de...hahah.....den after tat went back klass.....well happen to be exciting la....den i haf my duty to do...i was rushing here and there lookin for ppl here and there....ai yo..w.if the new sec ones veri difficult to find ppl ...hahaha....well i will try to get used la....after recess was the walk abt around the sch...hahahaha....they quite understand la....but i cnt stand tat girl l0r.....keep acting tat she noes everywhere....ai yo....den after tat went back klass after 45 ins went down for lunch and start off wif the cca orientation...hahahah....keep asking my juniors to join choir they wun regret de...but wat they tink is tat choir onli sing sing sing ....beside singing nth else le...but they are totally wrong l0r...beside singing ...we learn mani morals from mr toh.....but they jus...hAix.....den went to take a look at the choir orientation...hahahhaa....1A 1B 1C 1D first l0r...a lot of ppl dun interested to join l0r....they jus sing sing sing...hAix....quite disappointed......but still managed to get sum la....i tot the rest will make us shocked l0r... but more worst....band taken them.....sad case...almost all been taken by band..they are interested in band then choir....hAix.......cnt do ani tink.....
a lot of ppl sae sum tink which make mi keep tinkin why they do tat....hAix.....y they mus quit concil den they happi....their reason is stress......joining concil can relieve stress l0r.....why?why?hAix....tis is their choice to choose la....hAix....at around 4+ go tM wif yan wEi......go take neoprints ...i lyk the neoprint so muchh hahaha...veri fun....hahahah....on the way saw sum familar faces.....OMG....why are they together.....they haf all changed time flies time changes.......my friend was wif the betrayer hu betray us......i cnt accept it l0r....what they did .......make mi reall heart break leh......haix...the person whom i spent a year ...whom i trust her...whom i share all my secrets...are now wif the betrayer....whom i shed tears from......haix..what had happen....izzit another world...i wun be wif them le...i haf enuff of tis..i will be wif the concil gangs from todae...i dun wan to be wif them ani morw wasted my one whole year.....i regret.....

2005-01-01T20:06:00.000+08:00

tAt wAts fRiends aRe f0r

and i nv tot i feel tis way
and as far as i am concerned
i glad i got the chance to sae tat i do believe i luv u

and if i should ever go away
well then close ur eyes and try
to feel the way we do todae
and den if u can remember

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keep smiling keep shinning
knowing u can always count on mi for sure
tat's wat friends are f0r
for good times and bad times
i be on ur side forever more
tat wat friends are for

well u came in luving mi
and now there's so much mure much i see
and so by the way i thank u

oh and then for the times we were apart
well then close ur eyes and know
the words are cuming from my heart
and den if u can remember

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